08/21/2024
Yr 4- Day 2/365
Thank you all so much for the birthday love. Cards, gifts, flowers, phone calls, texts, messages, time, presence, and celebrations. I am so grateful for all of it and all of you and I appreciate it all, so much. 🩷🙏🩷
It was a good birthday, I didn’t cry. I have a pattern of crying on my birthday but the more healing work I have done, the less I cry on my birthday. There is so much pressure on birthdays and holidays to be so spectacular to make all of the rest of life better, that they never seemed to live up to the expectation.
I also think that the crying had a lot to do with not having real access to myself and as I have evolved and grown, I have so much more of myself therefore there is less to cry about, even though if I look at life there is plenty to cry about. The outer world will never meet the inner need, so if we are always looking for ourselves somewhere else besides within, it will never be enough.
Happy Birthday to me! Cheers to 51!🪷and Hapoy Birthday to my sister Cheers to 41! Same day 8/19, 10years apart. 🩷🩷🩷