Snowangelasmr

My Light

For those of you who are wondering about how I found ASMR and why I made a channel, everyone has there own story about ASMR and here is mine. Well it all started by randomly searching and watching videos on YouTube like we all do from time to time. I can across a video with someone whispering into a microphone playing with a brush, my first reaction was “Ok to each their own and whatever floats their boat” and didn’t think to much about it. A year goes by and I heard about this idea of ASMR ,( I had no idea that was what I saw a year ago). So me being me I did some research because I wanted to find out what ASMR was without any outside influences telling me their opinion about what it was. The summer of 2016 I found myself having a really bad anxiety attack that resulted me going to the hospital. The fall of 2018 around the end of August there was a lot going on in my life and I could feel the anxiety build up, I was determined I wasn’t going to the hospital ( I hate hospitals). So that night I opened my phone went to Youtube, having no idea what I was looking for but I knew I wanted to find something to relieve myself from this choke hold anxiety had on me. That’s when I found my light in the darkness ( I know it sounds weird but thats the only thing I can relate it to). Someone telling me “everything was going to be ok” in the most calming, caring and welcome whispering voice I have ever heard. Im not embarrassed to say I cried like a baby after I heard those words, its was the way it was said. Ever sense that first video I have looked at everything in a whole new way, I have a more positive frame of mind and self love. If I start to get that feeling of dread I think “Nothing Matters” (no not in a bad way) and I start feeling better. So the reasoning behind my channel is a “pay it forward” type idea, I would like to help anyone with stress and anxiety like the person who inspired me (he happens to be my favorite ASMR creator) but it will be a while before Im at his level lol.