01/16/2025
I drank for over 20 years, it was an everyday thing. It was my go to after a long day to unwind, feel "good", and honestly, avoid dealing with stuff. But looking back, I see how much damage it really did.
It started messing with my health big time. I’d drink after a days work (6 pack on average), catch a "good buzz", eat late, then crash. Never gave my stomach a break. Belching all the time, dealing with acid reflux, and feeling like crap was the norm. My body wasn’t processing anything properly and over time, it all caught up.
Being sober now, I see how dumb people act when they’re drunk. I used to be one of them saying and doing things I regret and acting like an idiot. I used to drink to gain “liquid courage,” as a way to relieve my anxiety but, I usually ended up in fights or in jail. Not because I thought I was tough, but because I was angry all the time and didn’t know how to emotionally deal with it.
Truth is, alcohol has no value to me. None. It didn’t fix anything or make me better. It just made me stupid, unhealthy, and a big mess. I use to tell myself, “life is good, eat, drink, it's all good", but really it wasn't.
After I stopped is when it hit. Drinking was behind so many of my problems.. my health issues, bad decisions, fights, unhappiness and losses. Letting it go has been life changing. I feel better and think better.
Now, I’m focused on living good and being better for myself and for my kids.
I'm 2 months clean and def not looking back or counting the days. I'm just done, period.
