10/21/2022
There are many times in my life I didn’t have my own back. I fought hard against everyone, everything, and especially those who I felt had been lucky enough to miss the “real life” experiences that lead me to believe there’s was only pain and happiness was a facade.
In reality, and what I know now is, my real life experiences were things that not a lot of people go through, even in their entire lifetime. I have had to accept that my back was not looked out for, and it made me believe there was no reason to look out for myself because continued trauma was my inevitable future.
Somehow, someway, I woke up. I stopped fighting my truth and started fighting FOR my truth. I stood up, I demanded respect, to be heard, seen, validated, empathized with, and in turn I created boundaries with family and friends, in my relationship, towards myself, and in all aspects of life.
I did all of the above FOR myself, because I was worth it. I was worth being taken care of and looked after. I was worth more than my past and deserved better. I wanted more from life and I knew the only person who could give it to me was myself.
It was a battle, internally and externally. It took the last 5 years for me to really get it and be in this place of undeniable self love and self preservation. But here I am. I am proud of myself and my resiliency; my intelligence and intuition.
I will do anything to protect my own back so long as it meant no harm to others. At the end of the day, you are the person you go to bed with. YOU are the only YOU that can save you from yourself. It’s worth the fight. This is a battle you can win. Never give up on your ability to overcome and become again and again and again.
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***deprevention
