11/12/2025
It’s been almost a week since I’ve been home, which feels crazy since my heart is in two lands at once.
I started teaching again last night, and shared one of the most profound moments with my students.
We were waiting for the impact of the eye. I was outfitted for survival with my life jacket on, shoes on, even in bed, like the “top 10 survival” lists say too. (If you are judging me for this 👟as a shoes off inside girl, I understand . But desperate times lead to desperate measures 🤷♀️)
Anyway there we were, outfitted like spontaneous Caribbean peppers, praying. Really reconciling with God.
These were not average prayers, but quiet faithful pleas, asking God and ancestors to protect my life. I was proclaiming that I was not done living yet. I was claiming it as mine, and precious, as unfinished.
I don’t think we do that enough. We don’t really grab our own life by the baby hairs and say I want you! I will nurture you, make your way, protect you. But in those moments I did, and I meant it.
Had the retreat gone to plan, I was going to guide a mortality meditation on the sea side cliffs, to the sound of waves and singing bowls.
Instead I was in the fetal position in bed, praying against the sound of the wind hissing like a fleet of asthmatic monsters banging down the building.
Praising God for my life by begging for more if it. If the antidote to grief is praise, I was doing it in real time. Back to the privilege of philosophy soon, but more importantly…
Tomorrow morning my loved ones in Jamaica will make the long journey back to New Market, St. Elizabeth, for the third time since to storm, bringing aide, food and construction supplies.
This time, they are bringing the money you donated to Alfred. You already gave him food and tarps as temporaty survival, and tomorrow will likely be the biggest hand-up and show of love that sweet old man Alfred has ever received. I’ll report back soon, I so wish I could be there.
Being able to help him and others is keeping my soul sprouting in a season of drought.
(Pictures from before and after the hurricane)