HeartSpace Life 111

05/08/2026

05/07/2026

Healing takes time AND integration. It's very common to feel tired and maybe a bit disoriented in life afterwards as you recalibrate.
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05/07/2026

What you don’t feel doesn’t disappear, It buries itself in the body. And when the heart can’t speak it, the body does.

That ache, that tension, that sudden flare of pain? That’s your soul asking to be heard.
Come closer. Lean in. Listen.

Be with the pain until it feels heard.
Then be with the release until it feels respected.
Then be with the light until you remember it was always your truth beneath the illusion.

From My Heart to yours
Kerry K

05/06/2026

05/06/2026

As I wrap up my time in Alaska, I am surprised by the amount of anxiety showing up. Going back to Kansas means going back to adulting and getting ready for the next stage of life. Going back to Kansas makes it feel more real that changes are coming, whether I really feel ready. I have thoroughly enjoyed my alone time. I'm not sure it's been as restful and rejuvenating as I had hoped. I also unfortunately don't feel like I've gotten the clarity I was hoping for. Maybe I don't REALLY need more, just continue with the tidbits I already have, I don't know, but that's all I have to work with.
I am grateful for the time spent with family. I am grateful for the healing work I've done and to have an opportunity to slow down. I'm grateful for my husband for holding down everything in my absence.
I have been doing more self reflection these past few days, wondering what my capacity is. How much can I hold.
Similar to 'what am I not seeing?', but instead, what is my nervous system capable of holding? What is my body and soul's capacity for abundance, helping others, loving myself, moving forward? What holds me back? (Not who. That answer will always be myself.) Where might there be fears and worries? Where are my edges ? Where is there possibly some self-sabotage? Can I fully accept myself and all the things I see as flaws? Where am I still judging? Where can I soften to actually find strength? Where can I surrender? How do I fully trust in the unfolding?

05/01/2026

Today's vibes 🤣

05/01/2026

This morning's reflections are on just how far I've come. And what's next? Just keep trying a little bit every day.
I know that I am more confident than I used to be but I could do a little better at that everyday.
I know that I'm more okay with speaking up but I could do a little bit better at that everyday.
I know that I love bigger than I used to but I could do a little bit better at that everyday.
I know that I love myself more than I ever have, but I know I could do that a little bit more everyday.

I know I used to seek validation, permission, acceptance. No more. I only answer to God and myself. No more shrinking. The world can adjust. I'm done playing small.

I'm ready...
To live authentically and stay true to myself.
To find beauty in all things when appropriate.
For more consciously moving my body and using my voice.
To alchemize powerfully and easily.
To spread love powerfully and easily.
For more sacred work.
For more celebration and joy.
To step into my highest level and favorite self.
To serve all people from compassion and balance.
To hold love that expands, not drains.

05/01/2026

Day 7 (part 2): after my walk and taking the time for reflection, 'what am I not seeing?' was definitely on my radar. I went back to the house to recenter and came across a short clip from a show or movie where a woman tells another woman, "Shame does you no good. You deserve to feel amazing." That caught me in my feels and I decided to ask and lean into where am I carrying shame in my body.
How can I release the shame I've carried for way too long that other people gave me, that I never should have received in the first place. I know I've been carrying a particular instance for over a year now.
Something I didn't share earlier is that on day one I saw a wolf, day two I saw a picture of a wolf, day three I was listening to an audiobook and she mentioned a wolf. In that moment I decided to call in the Spirit of the Wolf. I prayed to God that he would surround me in his love. I asked archangels to help protect me and for Jesus, the ultimate healer to heal me. Before I knew it I was howling and sobbing. I don't think we talked about shame enough. We can't shame ourselves for feeling shame. We can't shame ourselves when what we really need is love.

DAY 8: There was a definite shift today. I feel like I've stepped into a new era. The old is gone. I feel liberated! All the old patterns I have worked through. All the old programming. All the old me. Gone. And I am not going back. I am stepping into no longer being afraid to be seen. I am shining my light because me just being me is enough. And I will never let anyone dim it. I don't have to do anything to earn love. I don't have to do anything to earn respect. I don't HAVE to do anything. Period.
I stopped by my mom's old place of work again and closed that door as well. The world moves on after your loved one passes. And that's okay. It doesn't feel like it in the moment, but we have to learn to find our place in the world without them. We have to find out who we are without them.
I can honestly say that I love me. It's taken awhile to get here and the last literal 10 years have been rough, beyond difficult at times, but I like the me that's come out the other side.