09/02/2024
🌻September is national recovery month!!
When people ask me I say my drug of choice was alcohol… I’m not really tempted to drink anymore. I’m 16 years sober but drinking was never really my problem…
Drinking was a SYMPTOM. My main problem is that I’m broken. A lot of us are.
✔️Broken by my childhood
✔️Broken by unmet needs
✔️Broken from rejection
✔️Afraid of not being enough
✔️Afraid of screwing up or being unloved.
👉🏼Not understanding my own value and not knowing how to value others The way God calls me too.
I WAS BROKEN.
I had to figure out how to not FEEL so broken so I could live, I had to cope.
❤️🩹But when you’re in that state what’s the solution?
Fill the void… drink, spend, gamble, hide, numb out, game, eat, work
act out sexually… You name it if I’m using it to fill a void then I am USING.
So when I quit drinking I thought I was “cured“ but I was still so terribly broken…
I’ve always had Jesus in my life but I was finally ready to let him come in and change me! HE TRANSFORMED MY LIFE!
HE took care of the root of the problem…
🔥He meet my un-met needs
🔥He came into the damaged places of my childhood
🔥He showed me MERCY
🔥He gave me a new identity and heart
🔥He walked with me as I learned new healthy behaviors..
Jeremiah 6:14 says, “You can’t heal a wound by saying it’s not there!”
❤️🔥You have to really get honest about what you’re doing and why. You have to really embrace Step 1 which is admitting that we’re powerless and that we need God!
⛓Real freedom? Yeah, it’s not running after a substance to try and feel free. It’s not letting booze create a false identity for me. It’s not trying to numb myself into being OK with settling for LESS than Gods best. It’s not just white knuckling it thru what I don’t wanna do —but actually changing from the inside out to WALK in who I AM♥️
Do you need that? It’s available, it’s real and it’s YOUR TIME to step into it & level up. Happy recovery month 🩷🩷🩷
