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Kirasupdates This page is dedicated to Kira’s Journey and fight with inoperable & cancerous brain tumor. OK, a lot of people are asking when/how this all happened. Thank you!

This page is for friends, family and supporters of Kira and her fight with brain cancer. This started Friday 11-3-17. We learned of the diagnosis 11-9-17…

Many people following this that are friends of Robert’s (dad), Wendy’s (mom) or Kira’s (Baby girl). Just wanted to give an idea how this played out. If You want, you can donate at https://www.gofundme.com/helpkirafight or directly to my paypal

account (no fees) @ wendyastanley@gmail.com. Her Timeline:

Late September - Kira complained about double vision. We took her to an optometrist and they prescribed her new contacts. We know it sometimes takes a while to adjust so we gave it a little time but the double vision did not improve. Friday, Nov 3 – Kira complained of a bad headache which continued through the weekend. We made attempts to manage it with OTC meds, rest, dehydration, etc

Monday, Nov 6 – Wendy took Kira to urgent care because Kira still had the headache and was feeling dizzy. The urgent care doctor suggested that we call our primary care physician and make an appointment to either do an MRI (he was concerned more about the double vision) or have the doctor do a migraine “workup”. He told us to take Excedrin Migraine – which actually seemed to relieve her pain that night. Tuesday, Nov 7 – Kira woke up feeling dizzy again and the headache had returned. Wendy took her to the ER. The ER doctor did bloodwork to check for infection, cell counts, etc. All good. He recommended we keep our appointment for the general practice doctor (which I had scheduled for 2:30 that day). He suggested that the general doctor order an MRI. Same day, Tuesday, Nov 7 – General doctor visit. The doctor said he was concerned about the double vision and ordered an MRI stat. The imaging place could not make an appointment for us until Friday (ironically today – the day I’m writing this timeline). We went home and tried to manage the headache and rest. Wednesday, Nov 8 – Kira woke up nauseous and with a headache. She experienced slurred speech and dizziness and spinning. Wendy called the general doctor’s office and they told her to go directly to the ER (again). Same day, Wednesday, Nov 8 – Went to the ER in Encinitas. The ER doctor did a lumbar puncture (spinal tap) to test for meningitis. Those results came back negative. The ER doctor ordered an MRI which they did. After a long while of waiting, the doctor relayed the findings of the MRI to Wendy. Large mass in the base of the brain that appeared to be malignant. (side note: Robert had been in AZ for a work conference during all of this. He was not due back in San Diego until Saturday. He sped back home in Kira’s car (she coincidentally just bought that was in AZ)

Wednesday to the ER and arrived just after receiving this news about the tumor. He may have driven so fast that he broke the car :-/)

Same night, Wednesday, Nov 8 – transferred by ambulance to Rady Children’s Hospital ICU. They did another, more comprehensive MRI around 10pm. The doctors were gone for the night. Thursday, Nov 9 – Team of doctors, social workers, nurses and life specialists informed us that it was indeed a cancerous tumor. We have since been sorting through a flood of information about cancer, brain tumors, clinical trials, biopsies, pain management, quality of life, etc. Thank you to everyone for all your support and referrals and research and snacks and prayers and hums and positive vibes. Your positive energy is felt and appreciated.

08/26/2025

68th 25th…. ❤️🤟❤️🤟❤️🤟❤️

67th 25th… Kira loved music…  if she wasn’t listening to it, she was representing it or talking about it and learning li...
07/26/2025

67th 25th… Kira loved music… if she wasn’t listening to it, she was representing it or talking about it and learning life stories of the artists…

and it’s been a big week for music lovers… so this feels appropriate…

Kira and I were talking one day about what we could do to always feel close - even if we were apart… and we came up with the idea to make a joint playlist… we both added songs to it over time and it’s one of my favorite things in life… i have shared it before… and I’ll share it again now…

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/67O8FsBWgXm2eTLsg0cjj1?si=J0peouFURziYVgiJueTZlQ&pi=g2ug51hqTuqnVydis

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R.I.P. Ozzy 🤘🤘🤘🤘

Finally caught up with my baby girl last night for an experimental chicken Florentine recipe… Zane is so smart, so impre...
07/12/2025

Finally caught up with my baby girl last night for an experimental chicken Florentine recipe… Zane is so smart, so impressive… she has officially launched her own company which offers graphic design and branding. You’ve seen her journey over the years - she’s putting it into action. Her website, which she developed, is https://www.dumostudio.com - she is open for business! As any new entrepreneur, she is eager to get things started - she has experience with big and small companies and she wants to take that experience and education and implement it in her own unique approach of helping others. Please check her out and feel free to share with friends. Dumo is open!! ❤️❤️❤️

66th 25th…. Just saying on month 6    Kira has been visiting me and many others in the last week. No joke. She’s all ove...
06/26/2025

66th 25th…. Just saying on month 6 Kira has been visiting me and many others in the last week. No joke. She’s all over and I love it. I was feeling heavy about it and then I started getting message after message from people I have not heard from in months and some years… thank you always for reaching out and telling me she crossed your mind. I love it more than I can say… something’s happening. I don’t know what. But I feel it coming…

65th 25th… ❤️🤟❤️🤟❤️
05/26/2025

65th 25th… ❤️🤟❤️🤟❤️




Didn’t get to see any of my kiddos for various reasons yesterday. But in anticipation of them coming over, I cleaned up ...
05/12/2025

Didn’t get to see any of my kiddos for various reasons yesterday. But in anticipation of them coming over, I cleaned up my house… so kinda like my own gift to myself 🙂 gonna try to catch up with Zane and Chris and possibly Evan today or this week. This has been an interesting Mother’s Day. Heard from some people I haven’t heard from in a long time. It was nice… I just relaxed which was beneficial after and very long week with all our employees in town… for those of you who know my introvert status. It was a lot of ‘peopling’ last week All is well… love to all you special moms out there… and thank you for all the ones who reached out to me specifically…

Much much love ❤️🤟❤️🤟❤️




Christy Bennett
05/05/2025

Christy Bennett

Love abounds….
05/05/2025

Love abounds….

From all that
05/05/2025

From all that

Today… International Bereaved Mother’s Day. I’m trying to come up with words to say and it feels like there are a millio...
05/04/2025

Today… International Bereaved Mother’s Day. I’m trying to come up with words to say and it feels like there are a million of them all trying to squeeze through a one-letter sized hole in my brain.

When I look at these photos, my heart breaks for this woman… this mom with her baby girl… I can’t even imagine what she is feeling… how scared she must have been. How helpless. And desperate. My heart pounds for her. Pounds. Hard.

Then I blink… and I know it’s me. How is that possible? It’s not the me I am today. I don’t recognize myself in these photos - but I know that’s me. I mean - that’s really me. And maybe it’s that I don’t recognize my current self… blending who I am now and who I was in these photos feels impossible.

Facing inevitable loss, when these photos were taken, I still had hope. I never lost hope while Kira was alive - despite the odds… I just knew we’d survive - she’d survive… and probably still had some weird hope even after she died that it was all a nightmare I’d wake up from. I know now, I’m not going to wake up from it. Kira’s not coming back and I am a changed person. Forever.

It’s been 64 months since Kira passed. The hardest walk I have ever had to take was from her hospital room to the car. Like my body was slowly turning to stone with each step I took. How could I be walking away - never to hold her sweet hand, stroke her pink hair or kiss her sweet cheek again.

The woman in these photos stayed in that hospital room that early Christmas morning. She didn’t come with me to face this new existence. Kira was gone and so was she… me.

Things do change but it’s not easier - don’t let anyone tell you differently. If anything, things get harder. Finding the person who belongs in this body I walk around in has proven to be so so so difficult. And exhausting. And disillusioning. Defeat on repeat. I found a bunch of photos recently that I dont remember ever seeing - I remember the moments - but not the photos - I’ll share them next Sunday on Mother’s Day. It made me realize that much of my visual memory has been contained in the photos that cycle through posts like these… what a wonderful gift to stumble across them.

But I broke down and cried last night - not even remembering Bereaved Mother’s Day was today…. It happens, it still happens… it wasn’t the slobbery breakdowns I’ve had in the past, just a tearful 20 minutes or so… my friend hugged me and asked, ‘Kira moment?’ And I nodded… it Is just that. And it comes and goes.

I’m not writing this for condolences… I have experienced no shortage of support and love. I write this because it’s true - and the isolation that goes along with it is real and increasing. I am sharing this because as alone as I feel at times, I know others are going through similar times. I may never feel comfortable in my own skin again. Maybe in another 64 months? But there is some comfort in knowing that I’m not alone in how I’m experiencing all this and that is why I’m sharing. For those who feel isolated in navigating their own tragedies.

Hugs to all you bereaved mothers out there and hugs to those of you who stick around and support us through all the tears, chaos, self-destruction, clawing out of one hole and into another. I have recently learned that grief is to be witnessed, not fixed.

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64th 25th… still measuring in months… I may forever… April always seems to be a big month… I don’t know whether it’s lun...
04/26/2025

64th 25th… still measuring in months… I may forever… April always seems to be a big month… I don’t know whether it’s lunar or solar or imaginary… just seems to have strong tugs.

I thought about going to the beach several times today. Strangely, it would have been easier for me to do today than most other 25ths… but, I didn’t. It’s ok, I think.

I did have an experience recently that caught me off guard a little. Someone asked me how many children I had and I stumbled to answer… it’s not that the question is all that unusual - I get it pretty regularly by new people I meet or strangers making small talk in a temporary situation (uber, airport, networking event, etc).. but the other day, the question was asked by someone I have known and worked with for over 2 years… we’re not socially close, but we work in the same building and see each other just about every day…

I was stunned. I found myself struggling to answer because I really couldn’t imagine in that moment that I wasn’t saying something that felt so obvious… even typing that out sounds to me like I am so self-absorbed that I just make the assumption that anyone around me for any period of time ‘should’ know… it’s not that at all. I have for years felt conspicuous about how often I may reference Kira or Christmas or the 25th or cancer or daughter or or or… like I have just slathered it all over anything or anyone who comes near me for any noticeable amount of time…

Turns out, I don’t immediately walk in with my Kira badge to every situation. I don’t feel badly or goodly about it… just noticeable. It triggers a lot of thoughts… am I losing the connection? Am I letting her down? Am I moving on? Am I distracted by other things - and do they matter or not? Just feeling thoughtful…

A special shout out to Mrs. Francois (who I currently owe a message back) whose mother passed, after a difficult battle, very recently. If you’ve been following this page for a while, you know how important ASL 🤟❤️🤟❤️🤟❤️ was in our journey…Kira’s beloved teacher, Mrs. Francois, showed incredible dedication and support and genuine love for our girl. Her mom was right there alongside and I am eternally grateful for their support, encouragement and for ‘seeing’ us in our realness and rawness.

Much much love…





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63rd 25th… I have covid (for maybe the 63rd time). I miss my girl… but I made it to the beach… I needed that.
03/26/2025

63rd 25th… I have covid (for maybe the 63rd time). I miss my girl… but I made it to the beach… I needed that.

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