Audacious Herb

11/16/2025

Ok... I know l’m supposed to be posting about things I’m grateful for, and I will. But also we are surviving on dark humor. It’s easier to laugh it off than it is to be in tears 24/7. The reality of what we are still facing is really weighing on us. The number of solutions we have considered over and over again have only diminished the flame of hope. Good thing we believe in a god of mercy, a god of miracles, a god of peace and protection, a god of possible. Everyone keeps telling me how strong I am, but I’m not. I’ve had my moments of complete anger towards god, and then moments of complete peace and submission.
I’m incredibly exhausted on so many levels.
And yet He loves me the same anyways. I find comfort in knowing he doesn’t expect me to be perfect, He just expects me to ENDURE.

11/13/2025

Gratitude Day 3: Really grateful we live relatively close to top notch hospitals
Gratitude Day 4: I’ve never prayed so hard. So grateful to live another day. So grateful for real life miracles!
Gratitude Day 5: I’m so grateful for an amazing husband who never ceased to fight for me, be my voice when I couldn’t, advocated for me flawlessly, loves me deeply, and cares for me so well!

This is one of my favorite paintings. It reminds me that I can find peace…. Even when the devil is actively trying to take me out 😮‍💨

I’m going to have one heck of a story someday. Recovery was going relatively well until I started passing out. And then I started feeling sick. And then my cognitive function started to decline. I woke up in a panic in the middle of the night hallucinating about conversations with Brian I wasn’t actually having. I wasn’t able to answer simple questions or finish a sentence, so Brian rushed me to the hospital. They immediately suspected meningitis. We spent 15 hours running dozens of tests and scans. We started with a terrifying prognosis, and ended up going home feeling so much better after my ENT personally called Brian and the ER doctor with a solution that brought immediate relief. So is it finally over? Unfortunately no. The healing will take months, but I have been blessed with the greatest medical support, something I am not used to! My cognitive function still isn’t great (don’t ask me how long it took me to write this post….), and my body is weak. The next several months will be spent resting and healing. But I’m alive, and the healing will come. God is good.

11/10/2025

Gratitude Challenge Day 2: Join me the next two weeks sharing joy! What are YOU grateful for today? Today I’m choosing to see the good in things I could have been really upset about. I could have been devastated (I was) when the wisdom teeth extraction that was supposed to be easy, completely flipped my life upside down. Instead, I choose to be grateful I never have to deal with the awful swelling I had in my mouth for years because of them. I could have been hopelessly discouraged (I was), when I had to shut my business down right in the middle of multiple new developments. I could have been furious (I WAS SO MAD!) when we found black mold in our house from a bad construction job that caused us to become sick and drain our savings, instead I choose to feel grateful for the people and GOD who allowed us to make a way to remediate our home and make it safe and remain financially stable so that we can still pay our bills and buy groceries! I could have been so angry with the medical system (I was), instead I choose to be grateful for the great doctors I have now who are not only helping me through this traumatic situation, but changing my life forever! I had no idea how much of a difference removing wisdom teeth and fixing a deviated septum could do! Surgeries I would have never chose to have without this… aggressive push 😅 I’m excited to experience a new level of healing after all of this. I could feel like a failure because my kids have lost weeks of homeschool time, instead I choose to be grateful that they learn how to pull together in times of crisis. My kids are gonna grow up to be some solid humans. What a gift!

I could be so angry with God (I WAS), that a loving Heavenly Father would willing watch his daughter be tortured for so long and do nothing about it…. Or I can I recognize all the moments he was there for me, protecting me, refining me, and allowing me to become the best version of myself that would have never been possible without these experiences. Now I have a relationship with my father in heaven that can never be broken. The blessings are unreal! Isn’t God great? Just wait, it will get better. You’ll see 😘

11/10/2025

It’s been a year of loss, trauma, pain, betrayal and heartache. But it’s also been a year of breaking chains, renewal, revival. Today I’d like to start a series of gratitude posts through Thanksgiving. Because even in the storm, there is always something to be grateful for. God is good always. To start: today, I’m grateful for the incredible medical team I’ve ended up with. I have had amazing doctors and nurses through this process and it has made a world of a difference. It is the FIRST time I’ve ever had an experience with medicine where I felt cared for. My recovery has been difficult from the moment I woke up from anesthesia. I had the sweetest nurse holding my hand, rubbing my back, reassuring me everything would be okay even when I didn’t feel okay. Her words meant everything to me. God has sent me an army of angels and I feel so much peace through all the pain. What are you grateful for today?

10/10/2025

We received incredibly disheartening news this week. Test results show that I am no longer in remission (MS), I have incredibly high amounts of black mold in my body, which means the rest of the family does too. Some of our kids have become ill and I'll be going into emergency surgery this coming week. Please pray for mountains to move. We are so exhausted.

09/30/2025

I’ve been quiet on here for a while, and I feel like I owe you an update. Life has been heavy lately, and it’s forced me to step back from my business in ways I never imagined.

The last time I posted, I shared about the complications I was having from a wisdom tooth removal. Unfortunately, those complications continued to worsen, and I’m now facing a recovery that could take up to a year.

At the same time, we discovered a hidden water leak and mold in our home. It turns out the company that redid our siding accidentally covered the AC drain, causing it to back up inside our walls. We’ve been dealing with remediation and retesting after the first cleanup failed — and we’ve been sick with mold symptoms for months.

To top it all off, the tech company that was supposed to fix my business computer wiped it clean. In an instant, years of work building my business disappeared.

It’s hard to even put into words what the last few months have been like. This is honestly the tip of the iceberg compared to everything we’ve faced and I’m completely exhausted. My life feels flipped upside down, and I’ve been left numb and overwhelmed.

I’m sharing this not for sympathy, but because I want to be transparent with those who’ve supported me and my business. This season has been brutal. I’m still believing that healing, restoration, and brighter days are ahead — for me, my family, and for Audacious Herb. But it’s important to understand that I have several months of recovery, for my health, my business, my family, my home and farm, and, quite frankly, my sanity.

Thank you for your patience, your prayers, and your support. It means more than I can say.

09/11/2025

My heart is heavy, and honestly, I’m still in shock. The amount of hate and evil that is rapdly spreading is sickening. I feel a fire burning even brighter for my own faith in Jesus, and I will NEVER be ashamed to say that.

This has reminded me how short and precious life really is, and how deeply I need to lean into uninterrupted time with the Lord, with my family, and in my own healing. For that reason, I’ll be stepping back from social media for a while.

✨ To my customers and clients: during this time, please reach me directly by phone or email for orders or questions. Thank you for your patience and understanding.

We’re also entering a very sacred time. Rosh Hashanah and the Day of Atonement—the holiest day of the year—are approaching. I will be fasting and seeking God with my whole heart during these days, praying for renewal, forgiveness, and direction. We have been following the unfolding of prophecy fulfillment and it’s time more than ever to fill our lamps.

This season is not just about grief but about hope, about turning back to the Lord with everything in us. I love you all, and I’ll be lifting you up in prayer as I step away.

“Return to me, and I will return to you,” says the Lord Almighty. (Malachi 3:7)

09/01/2025

Hey friends, recovery is very slow and complicated. Please be patient with us while we navigate through this difficult healing process. We look forward to seeing and hearing from you very soon ❤️

08/21/2025

Here’s a little update… let me first start by saying this was not my surgeons fault. I have an amazing team and I’m really grateful for everything they’ve done so far. I waited 15 years too long and my wisdom teeth have caused more damaged then any of us really knew. Prayers for miraculous healing would be greatly appreciated 😭🙏🏼❤️‍🩹

08/20/2025

Due to surgery complications, we will not be at Athens, Tx Farmers Market the next few weeks. Prayers would be greatly appreciated ❤️

08/18/2025

08/14/2025

Come get all of your back to school herbs this weekend Athens, Tx Farmers Market!! It’s time to start boosting immune systems and keeping the nerves calm and cool 😌 ImmuniTea with elderberry, ChaimmuniTea with chai spices, Renew Tea for soothing the nervous system but also provide the energy you need to get through those long weekdays!