12/30/2025
One of my most prized assets is my do-or-die tenacity. It sometimes has down sides, but it is the magic sprinkled throughout the last decade and a half of self-reclamation.
3 years and one week ago I graduated Reiki Master class and soon after started shamanic practitioner training. Today I completed Level 3/Advanced.
Evolution, metamorphosis, death and rebirth.
I’m bizarrely comfortable in the chaos of growth and it is where I discover the most inspiration. I’ve learned to value stillness, softness, quiet, and pause- but it is not my natural energy state. I’m here to create change, in my families, my communities, my circles, and myself.
It is a lifestyle. It is very challenging and heartbreaking at times, but the feeling of emerging on the other side having conquered whatever obstacles presented keeps me engaged with the quest. I meet incredible people, learn powerful practices, receive and give help and support in reciprocity, and cling to the sense of adventure and hope that the darkness before the dawn is all going to be worth it. It always is.
Good things might come to those who wait sometimes, but they also come to those who work their ass off for them. I’m so proud of myself, and everyone who has participated in this grand group project. My fellow students, my teacher, my clients, my family, my spiritual support team in the non-earthly realms. I’m so grateful. I’m so relieved. I’m so at peace. I’m so ready to have a break from the relentlessness of holding my breath in the fire of change.
I’ve spent the last 3-4 years meticulously excavating through the layers of my soul.
The abandoned baby, the misunderstood little girl, the outraged teenager- all versions of me in this lifetime had to be given space to be expressed, seen and heard, healed, and integrated into the fabric of my complete self. It has been painstaking, disorienting, horrifying, and an endless stream of “you won’t believe what just happened”s.
Today, all of that work swirled around me like a sparkly, iridescent fog and finally filtered down onto a singularity within my being. I feel at ease. Peaceful. Light. Aligned.
My 2026 word is Harmony. The unification of all the pieces coming together. It reminds me of how I play several tones of singing bowls together at once to create a blend of dissonance unique to that moment. I see how it all fits together, how it all flows and functions, how one thing can unfold to a new path emerging over and over again. It is a gift that I finally feel ready to carry. A strength to offer to others, with the discernment of when, where, with whom. “Why wouldn’t everyone want to know/do all this?!”; I may never really understand that honestly, but I finally am capable of accepting that and focusing on myself and those who choose me.
I’m rebooting my service offerings and session models for 2026. I’m only taking clients a few days a month. Im releasing specialized workshops and events focused on this sacred work. I’m spending time working on deeper healing experience for people that applies the wisdom I’ve learned over the last few years about how this journey can unfold if one has the audacity to claim it as theirs. I may take on a shamanic practitioner “intern” as a way to begin training others outside of a formal class.
I’m ready to help. We are never alone. We are never hopeless. We can always choose to be personally responsible for our own experience and get to work to create the reality we desire.
The only way out is through. 🪄
