Tantra Tokyo Love

11/03/2023

1.5 years have taught me how to strip down like never before. I am ready to start again anew. I am still and **ra was not about massages or naked yoga. That was just how I made a living being your ideal ready to bathe you and forgive you and tell you you are GOD. I attracted my twin flame narcissist again and again and was SO UNAWARE until I had to become aware. I HAD to stop my business and meditate on my purpose.

11/02/2023

If you want a you have to they say..so I dedicated I TATTOOED IT on my heart center with painstaking needles. But it was never that I didn't love myself enough. It was that I did not KNOW THYSELF enough. And in this last 1.5 years of poverty have I gotten to truly know and love myself. And it was only through loving ANIMALS that reflected my purely that I filled this empty heart.

10/14/2023

The divine is keeping me alive through these animals. Assuring I am protected and comfortable 😌 they do not ask for much and I will always feed a free roaming cat. They are even more magical because they CHOOSE you. This simba wants to share my companionship! I'm so grateful.

10/12/2023

Beyonce gets off her tour at the height of her ESTEEM stage. I laugh because I haven't been able to be that girl for 2 tours of hers now. entertainment is NOT on my hierarchy. Nor is art or S3X or LOVE MAKING! Where are sexual expressions housed for you?

10/11/2023

IS a learning how to breathe again. Even the soft soft touch of a baby kitten, or a stereotypical pumpkin spiced latte. Today's intention was BE FUTURE ORIENTED. Days so far and the possibility of restaurant work is not there. We clocked 8-10 miles in steps doing a convention banquet. I am trying to keep myself off any op**te meds and still not want to die. Here are 3 things I keep looking at that keep me alive and well.

10/09/2023

Stripped Away of EVERYTHING I KNEW BEFORE. I journeyed to the edge of my worst fear which one needs to keep moving the maximum tolerance of every year. I've lived as a celibate cavewoman on these streets. And its been nothing short of interesting. Not even using psychedelics or alcohol. I'll be so glad when it is over. Soon. The Carol Leigh trust swoops in November and saves me from more shopping cart days. I'm going on a long long vacation as soon as I can. The stress of poverty. And not being able to take hot baths regularly.

06/25/2023

Like all good .. they must end. These moments are actually rare when i get to do yoga in between raising puppies (constant p**p and p*e mopping) every 6 hour sessions, watering plants, walking NEUROTIC AND REACTIVE dogs 2x day and trying to figure out my next houseless stint after this. I'm not sure if I'm even a miracle manifestor anymore but I'm keeping my spirit and heart open in between feeling depressed about leaving. Like being on any vacation

06/23/2023

My clients these days are dogs. This one is plenty neurotic and likes to do this intense with no breathing so she looks pretty psycho if you didn't know her. Remember tantrikas eyegazing is only loving when the intensity is consensual! She is learning to love and be loved again it seems.

11/27/2022

08/24/2022

at night kinda my dog is up on the hill i got a verbal warning about my dress not appropriate so even wearing a t shirt outdoors is too much. Home is where i get naked. Whereever that home may be. my shirt is off.