12/25/2024
Looking at this photo, most people would think everything is great… Living up in Grass Valley on 12 acres cozy in our little cabin…… But this has been one of the most challenging times in my life!
After tearing my rotator cuff in April rescuing a goat from my dog Jax, I was told surgical intervention was the only way to repair the tear. I was not prepared mentally for the tough recovery… I have 95% improved mobility now… Four months after the surgery… But the possibility of nerve dysfunction was never mentioned.… If I had even known, there was a one percent chance that it could affect the nerve function in my injecting hand I would not have done the surgery…
The surgeon said it could take 6-24months for full recovery… Something I was not equipped for… My livelihood is my injection hand… So now I’m on disability for another 6 months… i’ve been in and out of depression throughout this experience. It’s become very clear the extremely small number of friends that I have… I don’t know whether people are just trying to respect my privacy by not reaching out, but it’s also become very isolating going through this pretty much alone… Except for my supportive husband and my furry babies.
If anyone wants to be supportive or help, meals are always welcome! Just trying to do small things like whipping eggs… tearing up pieces of lettuce… Meal prep in general is a struggle when you have dominant hand dysfunction. And trying to do chores… Holding onto a cleaning towel to clean windows is difficult… Pushing the vacuum I can do left-handed and I have transitioned many things into using my left hand, but it’s all so hard.
To say that this has been a humbling experience is putting it lightly… It took nine weeks before I got my first disability check and I used a local food bank that was recommended by a great service most people don’t know about… You just call 211 and they give you a list of help in your area.
Trying holistic and traditional ways to speed up nerve growth, and trying to be hopeful 🙏🏻 would love words of support and healing tips.
