Quantum Field Trips

10/30/2024

This was a post by Mark Hyman, MD. Not only do I hate to admit that this is true, but even more, I hate that I am already 5 decades into building an Alzheimer's brain.

My saving grace is that I now know the damage I have caused, and I can celebrate the positive choices that have kept me going pretty healthy (from what I could tell) un until now.

I can choose to cry and stomp my feet about the loss of pleasure foods (been there/done that - full on toddler style I might add) or I can recognize that I am a grown woman and I can find pleasure in a plethora of options that I haven't even discovered yet!

I have actually been enjoying the journey, but the joy didn't come until I shifted my thinking and allowed the sugar addict child in my to grow up. I also choose to be grateful when a hot flash or other trigger brings my mind a lie that I have the opportunity to shift into truth. I choose to take responsibility.

Every problem that I buried over the last 50 years is slowly bubbling up to the surface now. Good, I say. I'm mature enough to handle them now. I obviously wasn't before or I would have then. No more beating myself up over crap like that!

You too? I would love to invite you to my passion project: The Menopaulistic Minds; Monsters and Mavens. It's a menopause support group, focused on healing our Monster sides, not shaming them. We have classes every Thursday and the replays are posted after. It's all free. Truly. I know we live in a world where there is always a catch, but there isn't. Learn the tools of self hypnosis for free, so that you aren't pulled by the hypnotic programming you come up against everyday. Media, family, self, work, school... We are a group of hot messes, but we are there to support each other, sometimes talk each other off the ledge and learn from each other. I'm honored to be a part of such a nurturing, and honest (brutally sometimes) group of women.
https://www.facebook.com/groups/1895146317575093

10/03/2024

Our Minds come together at 10 AM today (central). Same zoom link each week, if you want to save in to your calendar. I don't give reminders because, well, it's a free class and my bandwidth doesn't stretch that far at the moment. :P

I hope to see you there!
We'll be talking about the blessings of the F it all feeling and practicing some hypnotic feels. The relaxing and restorative kind.

If you'd like to join us, it's a free group with no spamming or sales. Just sisters helping other moody, hot mess sisters working on transforming into the Marvelous Mavens we were intended to be at this stage of life.

09/22/2024

Christian couples: do you bring the promise of living Christlike into your marriage?

Yesterday I was having a hard day.

For the last three years that I have been moving through perimenopause, my husband has been a saint! 😇 Especially the last three months of my journey, working to remove the heavy metal and balance the minerals that were causing psychosis. 🙈 I have found myself apologizing numerous times after I come back to myself and realize some of the things I have said or balls that I have dropped for dinners that I burned.😣

Yesterday, though, I was licking my wounds because I felt like he had been mean to me the night before. In fact, he had been. It happens sometimes. Some of the stress that was building up on his shoulders, ended up directed towards me.

Even though he had apologized, and I spent hours working out the extra anger energy on the kitchen, my heart was still tender and sad.

I was driving home and decided to put on YouTube Music. The very first song they offered was the one I posted here. I know it well. I love it! ❤️

This time, however, even though my heart opened up, pleading for the Lord to soften it and help me heal, I was surprised that the words took a completely different meaning! Instead of the words, pleading to the Lord, they were pleading to my husband.

In that moment, I saw all of the times that I had been difficult, but in every difficult moment, I still loved him fiercely and completely! His love, touch of reassurance and grounding, and forgiveness gave me permission to hold onto him, because he was holding onto me! Even when I did not feel like I deserved it. Why? Because 90% of the time my husband is Christlike.

Now it was my turn. To go home and love him and hold onto him, despite his poor reactions. His very human reactions. It happens to the best of us sometimes. 😉🙈

It’s easy to love and loving people. The real test is how you respond to someone who is obviously struggling to display the love they have inside. But isn’t that what we have promised to do when we take upon ourselves the name of Christ?

I’m not talking about removing boundaries. Sometimes love is walking away for a few moments or hours even. Love this patient. Love is kind. Love forgives, 70×7 times. The faster the better. 🙏🏼❤️

Overcoming those primal urges, to react as the human animal would have us react, takes practice and time and devotion. I’m still practicing.

There is no one on this planet that I would rather practice with then my dream come true. I love you. John Wilson! 🥰 I vow to always hold onto you as you hold onto me and we hold onto the Lord together. 🙏🏼

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09/11/2024

I thought I knew the generals of menopause when I was 45. By 47, I had my first wave of hot flashes that brought me to my emotional and psychological knees.
I was the healthy one. Nutritionist, auto immune nutrition specialist, national educator for Hemplucid, manager at Good Earth, hypnotherapist! I thought I would breeze through it.

I was so completely wrong!

It wasn’t until I noticed a few of the ladies, in my self Hypnosis/mind management group, who were backsliding. These were women that I had personally worked with for a few years and could not understand why they were losing their minds.

Then I lost mine.

I got a front seat look at how perimenopause works in the mind and body and how very behind we are in research.

What I found is that there are very clear, key markers in our 20s, 30s and 40s that will determine how easily, or tragically we move through perimenopause.

I sure wish I had the answers or even the questions I have now back when I was 45. 🙈

What I absolutely know to be true is that we were not meant to suffer through this transition! If we cover or mask or Band-Aid, our symptoms, they will continue to faster under the surface, and we will eventually have to deal with them. I would much rather work through my underlying issues (for me, it’s heavy metals and mineral deficiencies) then have them continue to cause problems beneath the surface. I am willing to sacrifice some of my perceived pleasures (Chocolate, peanut butter, sweets, sleeping in) so that I don’t end up with dementia or type two diabetes or who knows what else would occur in another 20 years had I decided to go the western route of pharmaceuticals.

I’m not against prescriptions. Women in midlife are given ADHD medication, anxiety, medication, depression medication, hormone, replacement therapy, blood pressure, cholesterol, pain, management, etc. medication. There is a pill or cream or suppository for every single symptom.

If you feel like you need something to help you cope with the symptoms that are showing up, go for it, if it helps, you bring your mind and body into a place where you are healthy enough to dig deeper and find out what caused your symptoms in the first place.

I took a friend to a functional doctor the other day where there was a huge beautiful room overlooking nature. There were about 20 lazy boys with elderly people, for the most part, hooked up to IV therapy. In her case, she had been given numerous medication‘s for various things over the years. Each medication had side effects, and toxic metals. Now she deals with extreme anxiety and is trying to remove the toxicity from her body so that she can live in peace.

You are the one that lives in your body. It is imperative that we reclaim our power and learn to listen to our own intuition. To our own amazing and wonderful bodies that speak to us daily.

This is my wheelhouse. If you are not best friends with your body, I hope you might be willing to improve that. If you would like to work on it with girlfriends, join me in eight weeks of self reflection and self discovery, as I teach self hypnosis, and we heal the monsters within us.

Classes start in two weeks. Please comment if you would like me to add you to the list. Classes are free by the way. My payment is your commitment to show up. Your patience as I push through the toxins in my own brain to start teaching again. Your help, when the simple words don’t come to mind. I’ve gotten pretty good at playing charades.😜 I am improving every day, but I want to save space with my girlfriends to practice teaching again. To get your feedback on some wild and amazing realization that I’ve had over these last two years.

All women are welcome, but I will specifically be speaking about and working through issues that are presented in midlife. Late 30s to 60s. Feel free to tag a girlfriend or sister in the comments or add them to our group. Accountability partners are more valuable than you can imagine! Let’s do this!

09/07/2024

If you didn’t see the post with all the symptoms, in case you want to guess what natural thing made me literally crazy, you can scroll down and watch the video posted 8/31.

My lesson learned:
*listen to your body
*adding large amounts of any isolated substance without all the cofactors the body needs with it can me much more detrimental than you imagine (especially without knowing your internal body chemistry)
*a toxic load of chemicals, metals or even healthy nutrients can really mess with your health
*perimenopause symptoms may be “normal” but they are clear symptoms of underlying conditions and need to be addressed, not just covered with a bandaid of replacement hormones or other Rx ( the cause of the anxiety, sleep disturbance, depression, pain, or any other symptoms need to be healed or balanced- don’t fall for a Dr that just wants to give a quick fix after a 5 min appointment)
*We deserve better care
*whether unhelpful/distorted thinking is caused by emotional distress/trauma, dysregulation (from perimenopause or chemical imbalance) or high toxicity in the brain; you can still use the same method to correct or heal the problematic thoughts and come back to homeostasis

If you want to learn the method for free, I will be going through my 8 week program with anyone interested in my Menopolistic Monsters and Mavens (menopause support group)

♥️Starting in a couple weeks.

I gave a long laundry list of symptoms that I had after using a my new amount of this natural substance in a topical cream.Because I did it without having a ...

07/18/2024

Not only is this couple cute, but they have great advice that is short and direct.

I'm grateful to have a husband that fights fair. One more place that I can see my come out. When I feel there is an injustice, my brain makes it feel SO HUGE!!!

Those are the days when I choose to stay quiet and take a bath or walk and talk it through with God or one of my mavens. Then I have a better chance at keeping the 4 horsemen out of the conversation. 😑

What about you? Are me and my sister the only ones that need help? 🥴
https://www.facebook.com/share/v/nTJQRwfpARuUfXbM/

07/04/2024

Feeling extremely grateful for my freedom!

Freedom to choose is so often confused. The free agency, given by God, is our opportunity. Not to do whatever we want, although, we can. BUT, we will always receive the consequences for those choices, even if it doesn't seem like it right away.

My freedom to choose is only extended, so long as I abide by the laws established that govern me. I choose to live in America and therefore I promise to keep the law. When I do, I continue to live with this freedom. If I decide to break the laws, I am choosing to give up my freedom when discovered.

My free agency to act, as given by God is the same. Only there is no hiding from God. No flying under the radar so I'm not caught breaking the law. Consequences are always given, even if we don't see how. When I abide with God, within His laws, I am actually given MORE freedom.

When I choose to walk away from God's law, I am held captive by my sin until I choose once again to return (repent) to abiding with God and His ways.

Oh how sweet it is to feel the freedom of a mind/heart/soul at peace. Those of us that have been held captive in our minds by poor choices, understand how very precious this freedom is!

04/22/2024

As children, friends, spouses with or without exes, co workers... we really can't get away from it. Maybe that is why some people prefer to only communicate with animals. 😺

Doesn't it just boil your bugs to know the people you love are sometimes difficult because of a million things they have endured at the hands of someone else who endured their own 💩 at the hands of other hurt humans? You can't hunt down everyone and beat them up. It's never ending!

Maybe this is why God commands us to forgive all. We aren't ever dealing with one person, but rather the world, through the interpretation of that one person.

Of course, those consequences can also be amazing and helpful when we come from a past of integrity, kindness, love and honor. My hope is to start creating powerful positive consequences for the people who interact with me (and the people I have direct influence with) in the future...

And off I go into the rabbit hole. Haha

What are your thoughts?

03/31/2024

What Easter means to me this year:
My Easter morning started at 4 AM, when I awoke and couldn't seem to fall back asleep.

My thoughts turned to Easter and all of the events that led up to that first Easter morning.

With my eyes still closed, in that beautiful and soft in between state of mind, I asked myself what is this teaching me today? These were my answers:

First, Christ endured not only the physical pain of the atonement, but also the rejection and abandonment of some of his closest people to him. Both physical and mental trauma. His reaction: Forgive them, Father, for they know not what they do. He understood that the people, friends and enemies alike, acted out of human nature/animal and not from their internal spirit. They had no comprehension of the magnitude of their thoughts, and reactions.

Can I follow that example? Am I willing to look at my friends, family and even myself and understand that when we as humans act out of anything other than love and light, that we simply know not what we do? That we're allowing our human animal instincts override our spirit?

Next, I thought about the phrase, "He gave up the ghost." I felt a slight disconnect because I feel like it's the other way around. Given that the time that passed from his crucifixion to death was much shorter than normal, it feels more deliberate. More like, he gave up the body, or he released himself from his body. It was intentional. His choice and timing. It was finished. There was no need to suffer for any more time. What suffering in my life and I just prolonging, when I have already finished the lesson from the pain/trauma? Can I say, it is done and release myself from the binds?

Lastly, I thought of my favorite Liz Lemon Swindle painting of Mary weeping as she peers into the tomb. I have always connected with it because it is so representative of my inner feelings of grief. I am often like Mary, staring into the trauma and loss. Wanting to help in my own way, to show reverence, respect, to heal, but aching at the loss. The pain. The trauma.

But she's looking in the wrong direction! Looking towards or into the loss just holds her in the pain. It isn't wrong. I know there is purpose in recognizing and being willing to feel our pain. And still, when we are ready to turn away from the pain, there is light.

Death wasn't the end! He wasn't there, in the tomb. In the loss or darkness. He rose above it. Literally.

The cross is not where I look. The tomb is not where I want to hold my gaze. I want my eyes, my heart, my mind to be fixed on His life. His message of love, of faith, of hope of joy!

Today, as I sit in overwhelming gratitude, I ask what I can do? How can I live in such a way that shows I see Him? I don't want to be a part of the ones who know not what they do. I want to intentionally turn away from the pain and fix my eyes on the light. I want to look at EVERYONE and EVERYTHING and find and focus on where the light is and then help to amplify that part.

How exactly? I'm not sure, but I know I don't need to know. I can have faith that God knows and I only need to be sensitive to His Spirit within me and then be brave enough to follow.

And when I fail... I hope that I can feel the words, forgive... often, too often, I know not what I do... and then turn once again towards the light.

Happiest of Easter Day to you!

03/16/2024

Hey local We're teaching how to grow your own microgreens Monday 25th, 11AM. If you'd like to come comment and I'll DM you. If we have more than 20ppl (still have about 10 spots open) or if you want to come, but can't make a day class, let me know and we'll schedule another. :)

03/16/2024

When you think your having a bad day... week...year... https://youtube.com/shorts/7APxlPY2CCA?si=OTM1CRKddByRpJ65

03/13/2024

Dear Men,

I have found that my male friends here have given me such valuable insight in the past, thank you!!!
I had a man share a video podcast with me and asked for my opinion. I listened for less than 5 min before I felt enraged.
Now, to be fair, I am experiencing hot flashes and so I know I need to pause and really question my thoughts before responding... I'm not sure I paused enough.

I'm going to share the video that was shared with me, and then my response in the comments. If you have some spare time, take a listen (2Xs the speed helps. haha) and share your thoughts.

I saw the responses on her original video and it pulled up sadness for me. I wonder if your responses are similar and I'm just way off, or if I just have a completely different circle of friends.
Thank you in advance!

01/01/2024

I was feeling rather muddled in my mind as John and I were walking home after a few laps at the park.

I had some things running through my mind that I didn’t necessarily want to share with him, simply because I didn’t need to. There was no reason to bring him down. I knew that I would work through the little wave of emotion, and we would enjoy the rest of our New Year’s Eve once I had.

Then the most peculiar and amazing thing happened!

We passed a woman who we had seen before in our neighborhood. She is an elderly Chinese woman. Very nice, and always waving with a smile when we pass.

I saw her and smiled, waved and shouted out a happy new year to her. She replied as well, and continued to sit on her front flower garden wall.

As I continue to walk home, I had the fleeting wish that I could know her. Somehow I could just feel the wisdom and love within her. I wondered if she lived alone, and if she needed help with her yardwork. I thought to myself that I would make it a point to get out later and meet her officially.

Then, before I knew it, she was walking towards me. John went on to our house. Apparently, the 4 foot nothing elderly woman did not pose much of a threat.😅

My shoe is untied, so I bent down to tie it as she came over and said, happy new year once again. I smiled back and replied, thank you, but then she took my hand in hers, and looked at me more intently.

She somehow conveyed to me that she did not speak English. She spoke to me in Chinese for less than a full minute, but my heart understood. She was blessing me with love in the new year. She was letting me know that she saw me, that she knew me, and that she is understood me.

Now I don’t actually know what she said, and it doesn’t even matter. God knew that I needed love and tender support in that moment.

Of course, I could have gotten it from my husband. He loves me every day, but sometimes it’s nice to feel loving kindness from a stranger.

I felt like my intention to give her loving kindness was returned to me immediately, and I didn’t even realize that I was the one in need!

God is good!
Blessings are all around us.

Today, the day that my mind has preparing for, as I have seen 123, 1234, and 321 every single day, multiple times throughout the day for over a month.

I have asked myself what I am preparing for.
What I am ready to begin.
What in my life is ready to take off?

She was my answer.
12.31.23 I make a commitment to be brave enough to act on what my heart guides me to do. I thought about wanting to know her, but she put that into action, even though she is the one out of her element, in a neighborhood, where, close to nobody speaks, her own language, and she showed me kindness. I want to be like that.
That is my resolution

One
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Here we go!
🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼
Much love to you!
~Ruthie Renae

12/03/2023

Relationship Fail #2
I’m on a roll y’all. 😑 

I really struggle to gratefully receive  are compliments on my advice or guidance when I’m in a 1:1 session where someone has had a breakthrough. Not because I have self-esteem issues, but because I always have a part of me that wants to blow the whistle on all of my weaknesses and failures in my own relationships. Like all of them.
With myself
My body
My God
My finances
My husband
My children
My work
And the list goes on. I fail on a daily basis. 

When I was in my 20s, somebody said they just couldn’t handle Fast in testimony Sunday where members of the board could get up and basically amplify the fact that they are hypocrites. They come to church and act so Pius and then go home and treat their wife poorly or their children.

My answer to him correlates with my feelings about being a Hypnotherapist, and teaching SelfHypnosis classes, coaching, etc., when I still feel so often in my own life. 

Those who share their testimony, wisdom, advice, lessons, etc. do so because they have that level of understanding, and are striving to become that. If we waited for anyone to be perfect, or an expert, especially at relationships, we wouldn’t have anyone speaking up.

My favorite teachers are ones who aren’t afraid to tell their own stories of failure. It helps me feel like there’s hope for me when my friends here are vulnerable, and share their authentic selves in all its diversity, rather than creating a catfish demeanor, or cherry, picking only the very best parts of yourself, with your best brushed up pictures. 

I sure hope I don’t come across that way. I’m also sure that probably some of the people I’m thinking of don’t intend to show up that way either. And maybe even those who intentionally put up a false front are simply doing their best to become fat.

In the end, who am I to judge? This new world just puts a slightly different spin on what we have always been trying to do from the beginning. Understand one another.
Figure each other out.
Connect.

We learn as we fail.

We either choose to take that layer off ourselves, or someone will find us out and take it off for us. 

Now look at that. I came on here to share how I failed again, so I might save someone from making the same mistake. Instead, I taught myself a lesson that I didn’t even know I needed.

Thanks for listening.

Maybe tomorrow I will share how I failed, and how I apologized and recovered. But for now, I’m going to enjoy my calming tea and connect with my sweetheart. Turns out he’s good at forgiving also. 😉🙏🏼❤️