05/04/2023                                                                            
                                    
                                    
                                                                        
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i began noticing that i was slowly healing from trauma, in a few different ways. i’m not so scared of conflict anymore. it doesn’t feel like my whole world is tumbling down if i’m not agreeable, or if someone is arguing with me. nowadays i think a bit of conflict can really help clear the air and release emotions. i also used to tolerate people treating me poorly; being in friendships where i felt like i was always the punchline of jokes, i went on dates with guys who were condescending towards me, i let my boss be abusive towards me and ended every shift crying in the bathroom. i never got the opportunity to have trauma therapy because i was denied the one i applied for, and after that i felt discouraged. but i have been doing trauma work on my own without even really realizing it. i have been challenging fears and triggers with tools i learnt in CBT, i have been practicing self compassion and i have been writing thousands and thousands of words about my traumas. trauma made me desperately want to be the “cool girl”, the girl who is unbothered and untouchable, the girl who’s always down for everything and doesn’t care if people walk all over her. i tried to be that girl as a defense mechanism for a long time but I realized that i’m not that girl, and i’m not sure she really exists. i’m painfully sensitive and highly opinionated and i am not chill in the slightest haha. and that’s okay. working though my traumas through creative expression and self compassion has helped me grow a lot, but I still have work to be done. i would love to get trauma therapy in the future if i get the chance to, once the pandemic isn’t so smothering, but for now i will keep working on myself in my own pace. my next post will be about signs that you’re healing from trauma, and maybe i’ll go into some more things you can do to help yourself if you don’t have access to care right now. how has trauma affected the way you move in this world ? what do you do to cope ? 💓  
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