01/16/2020
Chapter 1: My Mind Went Blank
October 25, 2019 was a rainy and gloomy day. Started the morning with a final walk through of our home at Lavista for 9 years. The closing of our house went quickly, but, i was not quite engaged the process, did not know why - uninterested or overwhelmed by my inner emotion; we can no longer go back to "our house" at LaCrista the minutes we signed the paperwork.
As we left the Title company, I felt all the sudden disconnected with everything - can not remember nearly everything have happened then and the last 9 years. Strange and wired, thought that I have had some footprints in northeast Indiana, PFW, and IPFW, but what are those? Perhaps, because that i have not told my friends that we are leaving; we were trying to avoid the farewell events. To us, we were overdue for migrating to the west coast, my promise to Maggie.
Other than knowing this date, we are going to see our two granddaughters, son and his wife, and in-laws. I still don't have a specific new home in sight in the general area of East Bay California, not at all. I have just put a pause and/or blank to professional career, day-to-day community engagement, reaching out for education, partnership, business development.. I have just entered a potential long haul of eat, driving, search, and sleep - the basic survival mode. All these, perhaps, does not provide the challenges that i accustomed to. So, my intellectual mind-set shut off, my mind went blank. I became a floater.
