
07/29/2025
I’m that friend who goes radio silent sometimes.
Not because I don’t care. Not because I’m mad. Not because I forgot about you.
But because sometimes, for reasons i dont really understand, staying in touch can feel so overwhelming, even with the people I love the most.
Sometimes I put my phone on DND and disappear into my own little world.
Isolation feels like comfort… until it doesn’t.
And then I have to fight tooth and nail to pull myself back out of it.
I’m an introverted extrovert battling with Bipolar. I crave connection, but I don’t always have the energy to communicate.
I want to be present, but sometimes being present feels like too much.
It’s never personal. It’s just something I’ve always struggled with. It’s not ideal but it’s something I have made progress in… the durations have gotten shorter, i am usually able to pull myself out of it more quickly than i used to. I still always feel guilt over it.
Life is rough sometimes .
I cant breathe
But, I’m getting better. Slowly.
And to the ones who understand, who don’t take it personally, who love me through my quiet spells, and who welcome me back with open arms when I resurface…
Thank you.
You have no idea how much that means to me.