06/09/2025
Itās a holy kind of remembering,
when the noise quiets, the wounds begin to knit closed,
& your breath slows enough for your pen to move again.
After all the survival.
After the silence.
After the seasons when you didnāt even recognize your own voice.
You return.
Tentatively at first.
The page feels like both a stranger and a sanctuary.
But then it happens:
A sentence comes.
Then another.
Not perfect, not polished, just true.
& suddenly you remember.
You remember what it feels like to meet yourself in ink.
To make sense of the ache.
To birth beauty from the ruins.
To touch God in the margins of a journal.
& you think ā no, you know ā
āI never want to stop again.ā
Not because writing is easy.
But because itās where you are most alive.
Most honest.
Most whole.
This time, youāre not writing to prove or perform.
Youāre writing to belong to yourself again.
& maybe, just maybe, to leave a trail of words
for someone else to follow home.
* * *
I finally healed enough to write again.
Not for performance. Not for productivity.
But because the silence grew heavy and the words became a way home.
& in the return, I remembered:
I love this.
I never want to stop again.
Introducing my Substack, The Holy Disruptionā
a gathering place for the soft rebels, the weary mothers, the faithful questioners.
For those who know that healing is holy and that writing can be worship.
Iām writing again. Come sit with me.