03/24/2020
Dear Loved Ones,
We’re meeting at a pivotal time in history. It’s a period where we can no longer deny how connected we are. Great loss is happening all over the world. And at the same time, so much can be gained here.
My roommate and I are taking this time of quarantine to return to the heart and the many things that we wish to create. I know we are not alone in this. I love seeing the creation and positivity and support all over our planet.
We spent the morning moving through grief together. Really feeling it. I’ve been opening more and more to the connection that we all share. I’ve been admitting how deeply I feel. I’ve been peeling back layers and seeing old patterns that I no longer wish to play out.
Truly looking at myself, without blame, regret, shame, or guilt.
Whoever you’re with on this quarantine journey is perfect. They are your mirror. They are here to teach you. The ‘what’ will be revealed as we open.
My roommate isn’t the type to let me continue to play out my complacent power dynamics. We are helping each other a lot. We are helping each other be stronger and truer.
Maybe I’ve projected this identity of being perfect, and it’s time that I clarified this to the world... I most certainly am not perfect. I can be a real pain, especially with those closest to me. I can be manipulative. I avoid conflict. I blame others for my lack of focus. I am possessive with food. I wish I had perfect control over my household. I wish no one would ever challenge me. I like to run away from uncomfortable moments. I take tiny things personally. I assume the worst sometimes. I fear that my needs won’t be met if I give too much. I cling to the old and comfortable. I am stubborn.
This isn’t to say that I’m a bad person. I know I have many wonderful qualities too. It’s actually not about any of this though. It’s not about good or bad. It’s about loving myself FULLY. It’s about taking responsibility for my own thoughts, actions, and reactions. It’s about making better choices. It’s about choosing love over fear and limitations. It’s about seeing others as an extension of myself. It’s about being brave. It’s about communicating clearly, directly, and with love. It’s about showing up.
Thank you for being alive now. Thank you for everything you do behind the scenes. Thank you for your love.
Xoxo,
B