08/18/2024
One of the hardest lessons I have ever learned as a friend, or as a healer...
Some people choose not to get better
They don't do their homework or don't show up for appointments
They choose to continue to see themselves as victim
They choose to let fear rule their lives.
I used to get frustrated with them.
Now, I realize we are all on unique paths of exploration and healing. Their soul might not be ready to heal yet.
We all find our way in perfect timing.
Thank you, ex-friend, for being a mirror..
Thank you to my old friends and clients who choose to stay stuck....maybe it was not a conscious choice but it frustrated me all the same..
My primary purpose in life is personal growth.
The younger me could not understand that not everyone makes growth and healing a priority. Most are happy with the status-quo.
Do I still have work to do? Yes. Of course. I always will..I think I would no longer be on the planet if I was fully enlightened, but I get closer every day.
I choose to live in the belief that I am already healed, and that I am constantly evolving.
I invest significant time, money, and resources into this one thing: Me. Evolution. Healing, Ascention, Liberation, Freedom. Peace. JOY, LOVE,
Then I realized these poor sad victim people were providing a sacred mirror for me:
When I look at you, stuck in victim, I remember how long I stayed there....but I didn't know. I realize a part of me is there too.
I felt shame for being where you are and not healing faster. I realize that I too sometimes choose to supress the uncomfortable feelings.
My therapists only coddled me and agreed with me. I didn't know there were other options, or better therapists. (Until a bodyworker taught me about my inner child)
I felt shame for taking those anti-depressants that only made me numb and suicidal.
But I didn't know. My trusted doctor prescribed them in an effort to help. I didn't know there were better options. Until my friend taught me about EMDR.
I felt shame at lashing out at my friend because she unknowingly poked at my trauma/inner child.
But I didn't know I had a choice. I did not know there was a way to heal that emotion permanently. I didn't know. Until my friend taught me to parent my scared, hurt, inner child.
I felt sadness and regret for not knowing, for not healing faster.
The truth is: we all do the best we can do in the moment. We are all on a unique spiritual journey.
NOW, I choose friends who challenge me, love me, and stand by me, even when I trip and fall. Even when I accidentally trigger *their* trauma.
I choose friends who own their own emotions and continue to do the shadow work alongside me.
I choose friends who will lovingly tell me the hard truth - even if it hurts.
I choose clients who are ready to make a major shift in their life.
I choose clients who are willing to bravely step out of old patterns.
I could have a schedule full of people who just want to be coddled, massaged, calmed, petted. People who want me to tell them its all someone else's fault.
...People who want ME to make them feel better for an hour or two , but don't yet accept that real healing is possible. ..if you are willing to do the hard things yourself.
Or...I can have time for YOU, brave spiritual warrior.
I make time for the brave, spiritual warriors who get out of bed, get into their car, show up to DO THE WORK to get out of your house, out of your head, out into the world where the most challenging work is.
You don't have to be perfect, you don't have to get it right, just get up and try again. This is the path. Its not all love and light. It's often hard and messy, but the result is freedom to be all of you. Freedom to be who YOU choose.
When you try, really try, and meet me half way. ..I will be there cheering you on, holding your hand, and going deep into wherever deep place spirit leads. I am not afraid. I will stare down demons with you. I will hold space while you shutter and cry. I will channel the unconditional love of GOD so that you can remember what home feels like. I will walk beside you, but you first have to choose. Choose YOU. Choose to show up.
And I am honored to work with every single one of you. Brave souls. Divine beings. Starseeds. Healers. Child of GOD. Spiritual warrior.
Thank you for doing the hard work to raise your vibration, to heal your inner child, to communicate in a healthy way, to have relationships that thrive, to BE ALL of you.
Thank YOU for raising the vibration of the planet.
This is the work I thrive on:
Trauma released from the body
People ready to heal
People loving themselves and choosing to live free.
Divine beings enjoying the adventure of a human existence.
And I can help with your migraine, TMJ, back pain or frozen shoulder. ..but don't be surprised when my gentle work leads to ugly crying because....THAT is where the emotional pain has been hiding.
My work is gentle. Gentle enough to allow your mind to stay in your body and to actually FEEL where I am touching.
I prefer to stay under the pain threshold so that your body doesn't tense up and guard. I prefer to move slowly and gently so that we can unwind all the fascial connections that are intertwined with that hurt place. I prefer to hold sacred space so that you can finally FEEL that pain and trauma that you have been avoiding. The tears only last for a few minutes, but the cathartic tears that you have been avoiding for years open doors to new levels of peace, joy, and love.
Be tender with you, with all of you. Are you ready to go all the way into that place of pain? Are you ready to see the parts that you are afraid of? Are you willing to let go of the guilt, fear, shame, regret?
Letting go of that old resentment will FREE YOU.
Are you ready to let THAT go?
💕💕🙏🙏🙏
