08/08/2019
Truth be told,
I haven’t gotten on my mat in a little while. Not that I haven’t busted out a down dog or some stretches here and there. But my mat and I, we have been taking a break.
And you know how I feel about it? Great.
How do I feel physically? Ehh, pretty tight.
How do I feel mentally and emotionally?
Like I could probably use some yoga.
But I’m reminding myself that regardless of these obvious consequences from halting my practice, a break can feel so right.
And it’s been a season where I’ve needed to remember why I do what I do, and to feel in my body, mind, and spirit why I chose to cultivate this discipline to begin with.
I took some time off from teaching yoga last month, and I’m continuing that break into this one, and it’s the first time I have given myself permission to rest from my routine for about a year.
I know this isn’t necessarily right for everyone - maybe most folks don’t need to be reminded of the why, but I’m one that needs space in order to gain a refreshed perspective. And I don’t think I’m alone in needing grace around this issue.
In fact, God even ordained ritual rest from food, working, routine in order to remember the why and the stories of His love for us, and it’s all about stopping to remember.
Maybe this has become even more habitual from learning to look forward to summer break from school, only to be ready to start again in the fall after missing the structure of routine. Summer is a season of unstructured-ness, and I love it. I need it.
In the past, I know I would have seen this differently - a break. I would have felt guilty and beaten myself up about it, but that isn’t productive, certainly isn’t restful, and is far from listening to and honoring myself in this present place. So now, I am committed to following the lead of the One who needs my presence, my full attention, and my complete surrender.
I’m learning how to be, without always doing, and to find my identity in Him, not in my favorite things. Truly I believe this leads to longevity in the life we are passionate about pursuing; more balance, less burnout, and heaps and heaps of grace.
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