11/01/2025
As I am getting older, my circle of "friends" is getting smaller.
When I was in my teens, I was lonely. No one wanted to be friends with me because of my appearance.
When I was in my twenties and thirties, I made friends who I thought were "friends"...hanging out, going to movies, grabbing lunch, etc. Also, because I lost a little weight and looked like the so-called
As I turned the corner into my forties, I still had "friends" but the definition of true started to make more sense. I never felt fulfilled in any relationship. I never felt like my cup was filling up. I always felt like I needed a 😴 after the little social rendezvous
Now, as I turned 50 this year, I have realized that true friendship
👥️ is a two-way street
👥️ it has to feel
👥️ there should be no
👥️ there is no room for and
👥️ I should feel refreshed not exhausted
👥️ I should not need to think twice before picking up the phone to call to just talk and vice versa
👥️ I shouldn't feel the need to look or dress a certain way to "fit in" or "belong" or just to hang out
And, I have noticed, I don't have any of that, never had.
It was always fake and a facade for five decades and I don't have the energy anymore to feed into that kind of a fake world.
As I am getting older, my circle is getting smaller and I am very content with that. For me, having a true friend needs to feel authentic, effortless, gossip-free, and judgement- free. It is a connection of two souls exchanging energetic vibes that feels content, soulful and fulfilled ✨️ 😌
As my spiritual practice has deepened, I am content in my own company. My inner world is at peace and doesn't need any kind of external stimulation to feel whole and fulfilled. My mental sanity is paramount to my overall well-being ✨️