05/13/2020
This one's for all my slow folks...
Did you notice how the digital space was FLOODED with information, programs, webinars, Zoom classes, and virtualized offerings right after s**t got REAL with COVID-19 in the US?
Yeah, me too.
And I caught myself allllllmost falling into the trap of believing that, in order to "keep up" or "be of service" or "stay relevant," I need to join the fray ASAP and add something to the tsunami of content that was being unleashed in late March and early April.
OR thinking that I needed to jump on the self-improvement, "take advantage of all this extra time" bandwagon and start participating in a bunch of classes, challenges, online events, or free programs myself.
But then I stopped, took a breath, and acknowledged two things:
(1) I was in the midst of a collective and personal TRAUMA.
(2) Some of the stuff I was seeing suddenly popping up on the ol' interwebs was great, helpful, and important. A lot of it, for me at least, just seemed like noise.
Giving myself some space to be with my own experience of the pandemic (health impacts, familial concerns, economic uncertainty, loss of purpose, feelings of powerlessness and lack of control, uncomfortable emotions) needed to be priority #1. And, at the risk of sounding a little bossy and absolutist, this should be your #1 priority too -- TAKE YOUR TIME. There's no rush. Allow yourself to feel into what you're really experiencing day to day and moment to moment.
One morning, you might feel completely at peace -- appreciating the quieter rhythm of your days, the extra time with family, the gut check COVID-19 may have provided that forced you to really reflect on if you actually LIKE the life you're living. The next afternoon, you might be full of rage at folks' carelessness, grieving because you miss your dear ones, or ready to lock your kids out of the house just so you can buy yourself a few minutes free of bickering and whining.
All of this is real. All of this is valid. All of this is normal and okay. BE WITH IT.
You guys -- it took me almost two months to consistently feel mentally, physically, and emotionally safe enough to do anything other than minister to my own tender heart in this tumultuous season.
I am so, so, so glad that I waited to say much of anything on the socials or to construct any new virtual offerings -- because I realized that it's damn near impossible to create heart-opening, transformative, thoughtful offerings and content when you're losing your s**t.
And it's pretty unlikely that you're going to feel edified, educated, and replenished if you're participating in all those Zoom classes, online trainings, and month-long programs while you're barely keeping your head above water on a personal level.
Stop and breathe.
Be with yourself and what you're experiencing.
Take your time. The world will still be here when you're ready.