01/24/2024
I found out yesterday that we lost Bill.
I didn't understand at first, then I was like, no, not "Bill" Bartak, it must be someone else. But yes, Bill is gone.
I've coached several trail running clinics and workshops, and from the minute Bill heard about it, he joined and was in each one.
I held a meet and greet before the first session, and I remember thinking, who is this guy who is so enthusiastic about this whole thing??
From then, he didn't just join; he became part of the heart of it.
He was always there, encouraging others and being a positive force. I'd drive up and see him warming up, chatting with others, or doing a standing Yoga pose and meditating in the sun.
But more than a member of our running group, Bill was my friend.
We would talk about caregiving, as he had cared for his Mom with Alzheimer's, as I'm doing with my Mom. He would message me to check in on how I was doing. If I responded, "Meh... well, I'm still here", he would get it without any judgment.
As many of you know, several years ago, I was stalked and assaulted, which left me not only fearful of running outside but at times, not even wanting to leave my house. When I wanted to attend various races to support my coaching clients, who went with me so I wouldn't have to wander around alone? Bill.
He hand-made a card for me after one of the running workshops, telling me I was the best coach he'd ever had. I still have the card.
He was so inspired by trail running that he cut a trail on his own property and would often post pictures from out running on the "Bartak trail."
I considered doing another running and fitness group this year as I've not done one in a while due to my responsibilities with my Mom. Of course, my first thought had been, "I wonder if Bill would want to join?"
I'd frequently try to convince Bill to run an ultra. He would say he was unsure if his knees could make it (I think he could have done it.) Well, maybe now he is free to run or follow whatever ultra course he chooses.
We'd talked about going to run some area trails that we hadn't tried before. Now, we won't get to.
I want to hold an informal run at some point in Bill's honor. I don't have the mental wherewithal to decide where or when right now.
If you'd be interested in running, walking, or hiking in it, let me know.
Enjoy today, the longer I live, the more I realize that it's all we have.
PS: Bill, my knee is jacked right now, as you know. But it's healing. When it's better - I'm going to run one for you!