Innermost Illumination LLC

08/01/2023

I lost myself in the grief of losing my father. As much as I wanted to fine through his loss I guess I wasn’t. My vibrations slowly were diminishing. Lost touch with Reiki. I did start going to church but not even that was enough.

Eventually I stopped doing all the things I really actually loved. Self care. Pouring into people. Staying positive. I even lost my way of speaking to people in such a purposeful way. Saying all the wrong things.

All that is changing. I know because I definitely can feel it. I am not afraid anymore. Scared of losing something or someone. I am speaking effectively again. And I have people approaching me again. I have people reaching out to me about Reiki. So I know my soul is healing. Reiki gives you what you need. I’m very much seeing and feeling I’m getting ready to pour into people again. It’s what makes me…ME! 🙌

07/30/2023

Today my mother and I visited Kindred Vintage. As soon as we walked in the door my soul was happy. The smell, the feel, the vibe. It just fed my soul. Highly recommended for everyone to visit! 🙌💫❤️

07/30/2023

It’s a beautiful site!

07/28/2023

🙌Time to meditate! How do you meditate? There’s no right or wrong way.

💫I usually lay in my bed, where I’m most comfortable. I put my headphones and listen to the OM chant below. The deep vibrations soothe me. As things come into my mind I acknowledge them and bring my attention back to the deep vibrations. This is how meditating has been most effective for me.

🌙Sometimes I need complete silence. I turn off my fans, all the lights and listen to the sound of nothingness. Literally.

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07/26/2023

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07/26/2023

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06/11/2023

Over the past several months I have stepped away from self-care, meditation, Reiki and it SHOWS! The way I have been handling stress is far from how I would have just a year ago. I’ve let myself wander and rid of all my HEALTHY coping skills.

Today I start back to working on getting in alignment with my true self. I’ve missed me. 🫶🏼

11/15/2022

Cleansing my home with Sage today.

Since my dads passing things have been heavy. Especially these last few days. I’m being guided to cleanse my space.

The biggest change is I got his recliner on Saturday and I’ve been crying randomly since. Real emotional. He didn’t pass away in his recliner. But it was the chair he sat in and slept in the last couple years. His Celebration of Life is this Saturday so I know that plays a role too.

What I know for sure is I’m feeling a strong need to cleanse the whole house so I will do just that! Happy Cleansing to me! 🙌💫🧘‍♀️🌱

11/10/2022

Today a dear person to me said that he noticed that I haven’t been doing my usual things, that I have stopped doing it, and he’s noticed a change. This was while I was cleansing with Palo Santo.

Me: yes I have. I just had a huge loss. So yeah, I’m off beat but I do all my things.

Him: this was starting even before then. I’m just letting you know. Maybe you need to do some self reflecting.

Me: ok. Thanks for the negative talk.

OK OK!! So this is my victim mentality talking! I was a pro at this most of life but obviously know the toxicity in it. So when I revert back to this mentality (which happens from time to time still) I know my spirit is not strong at all!

So later as I self reflect I definitely have not been doing self-reiki. I’ve meditated maybe a hand full of times, and cleansing is more frequent then the others but the quality of my cleansing hasn’t been quite the same. And simply because I went into this victim mentality immediately was the total give away that he was right. So later I was able to be grateful he shared this with me because sometimes we don’t see it in ourselves and it does take someone to point it out.

Usually I’m receptive and open minded when someone shares something about myself to me. The only time I am not is if I know for sure I am doing all the things or the source who is saying these things to me is beyond anyone who should be speaking on my faults anyway, but even still I’m usually just like “ok, thanks” and let it go. But when my spirit is messed up I get super defensive and I can literally feel the ick and resistance in me because I know they are right and just don’t want to admit it.

The point is, is someone who you know truly cares about you shares something with you that may need working on take the time to reflect on it. Take the time to understand the things you are doing to make them say something to you. Most of all be grateful you have someone in your corner who is honest with you in such a pure, raw form that they are able to tell you something like that. Those are the ones you want In your corner. ❤️

11/09/2022

How many times do we hear “I was at rock bottom” from peoples successes? ALL THE TIME!!! It’s really about perspective!

11/06/2022

This morning I have been reflecting on these past couple weeks I’ve experienced.

I feel cozy in my home. I feel blessed and thankful. Everyone who has reached out, sent flowers, given me gifts, and cards, kind words, and above all, prayers, positive energy, and Reiki—I am blessed to know so many good people.

My support system has gotten me through this trying time. Especially the support in my home. My home is my safe place-my haven-my peace. Just as it should be ❤️

11/02/2022

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10/31/2022

Today I cried. Today I felt emotionally spent and therefore was physically spent. When I cried I tried to prevent it but others around me gave me a hug so I said what the hell and cried a little.

I know it’s important to grieve but I am one to do it in private. Our releases come about when they need to be let go. Try to release it when it comes-don’t suppress it. That’s where numbing comes about. I will do better. 💫

10/31/2022

No shortcuts. It’s all in.

10/31/2022

Always go through the grieving process. Acknowledging and letting go. Don’t hang on and suppress.