01/02/2026
My life is full, but I feel weirdly empty. I texted my husband from the grocery store:
“Do you need anything?”
He replied: “Whatever.”
One word. That was it.
And I stood there in aisle 7, staring at the cereal boxes like they were written in a language I used to speak fluently.
Because the truth is… I’d been answering the same way.
Whatever.
Fine.
Doesn’t matter.
Not because I didn’t love my life.
But because I couldn’t feel it.
I’m 45. I’ve done the whole thing.
Packed lunches. Signed permission slips. Made birthday magic out of paper plates. Built a home with a man I used to flirt with across the kitchen.
And somehow, somewhere between “Mom, can you…” and “What’s for dinner?” and “I’ll do it later,” I became a person who was constantly there… but never really here.
I didn’t notice it happening at first. It wasn’t dramatic.
It was tiny.
The way I started dreading the sound of someone calling my name.
The way my patience got thinner.
The way I’d snap over a sock on the floor like it was a personal attack.
The way I’d look in the mirror and think, “Who is that… and where did the spark go?”
And then there was the other part no one warns you about.
The part where intimacy starts to feel like another responsibility.
Where your body is technically present, but your brain is somewhere far away, checking off tomorrow’s to-do list.
I tried to blame life.
It’s busy. Kids. Work. Stress. Aging.
That’s just what happens, right?
But late one night, after everyone was asleep, I was sitting on the edge of my bed with my phone glowing in my hands, searching for something I couldn’t quite name.
Not “how to feel sexy again.”
Not “how to stop being irritable.”
Not “why do I feel empty even when my life is full.”
Just… why don’t I feel like me anymore?
And that’s when I found what nobody had ever explained to me in a way that actually made sense:
Perimenopause isn’t just hot flashes and skipped periods.
Sometimes it’s:
waking up tired even after sleep
anxiety out of nowhere
brain fog that makes you question your own intelligence
weight that shows up without permission
zero motivation, zero joy, zero patience
feeling like your emotions are running the house and you’re just living there
And here’s the part that hit me right in the chest:
When your hormones shift, you don’t just “get older.”
You can start to disappear inside your own life.
Not because you’re weak.
Not because you’re ungrateful.
Not because you “need to try harder.”
Because your body is trying to function with a brand-new set of rules… and nobody handed you the manual.
So I did something different.
Instead of guessing, Googling, or gaslighting myself with “I’m fine”…
I took this Hormone Health Test.
Not because I wanted a label.
Because I wanted clarity.
It helped me see patterns I couldn’t see when I was stuck inside the day-to-day: the stress piece, the symptoms, the “why” behind how depleted I felt. It gave me a starting point and a direction, instead of another vague promise to “just take better care of myself.”
And the weirdest part?
The moment I stopped guessing… I felt a little less crazy.
Not fixed overnight. Not magically “back.”
Just… less lost.
If you’re in that season where you’re doing everything for everyone, and still feel empty…
If you’re snapping at the people you love and then hating yourself afterward…
If you miss your libido, your spark, your patience, your softness, your joy…
Start here.
Take the free Hormone Health Test.
It takes a few minutes, and it can help you understand what your body may be trying to say.
(And if the results show you might benefit from a deeper conversation, they'll help you take the next steps - the consultation is free too!)
Because you’re not “too sensitive.”
You’re not “broken.”
You’re not “just getting older.”
You’re a woman in a transition season.
And you deserve support that actually makes sense.
TAP THIS LINK TO TAKE THE FREE QUIZ: https://renewmetoday.com/fb-hormone-health-test/
