08/28/2024
Wow , I went to (christian) church to celebrate the Enlightenment of Jesus' mother - and I had EXPERIENCES while praying with others
First, I was listening to the church singing, which is like chanting... like ... Tibetan Buddhist chanting!!!!
Suddenly, I saw Dalai Lama in front of me and he told me to keep praying because somehow the two prayer groups MERGED and the EFFECT AMPLIFIED
No, I dont drink and I dont take drugs. I just MEDITATE AND PRAY and that is wilder than anything else you could possibly imagine!!!!!
Fairy tales come from that realm....
SO anyways, as I was listening to this chanting coming from two different parts of the world and UNITING AND AMPLIFYING, it was a huge thumbling rumble that just swept everything
it was like an energetic earthquake, or tsunami, or whatever you want to call it, it just WENT and DESTROYED anything bad
And any time I "lost it" and then plugged in again, I had image of Dalai Lama coming to tell me to keep going
Then we lined up in front of he altar to receive a blessing from the saints, and then .. wooow! what I saw is a string of balls of light. Each person was like a ball of light. I saw darkness with a sting of brilliant balls of light,..
AND THEN THE LIGHTS AMPLIFIED AND MERGED AND IT BECAME A STREAM OF LIGHT, A RIVER OF LIGHT
and than that too was like tsunami of LIGHT just FLOODING the whole world
Who was there? nobody special, just ordinary daily people. PRAYING
and then I said hi to the main saint and just before I continued to say hi to all other saints,
I noticed a very beautiful huge image of Mother and baby Jesus - such a beautiful image. Usually icons have stern faces but this one had a human face and it was life sized image and she looks at you very sweetly - and baby Jesus looks at you sweetly too - and the image itself was so beautiful. the Mother wore a soft red color cloak, and the tone of the image was gold and red, and it was just beautiful and soft and lovely - and so I was really enjoying it. I admired the image from distance.
then went around to say hi to others saints.. and I found another beautiful huge icon of Jesus' mother and baby Jesus, very unusual, Jesus sitting on her lap like a human child would, and both mother and child looking straight at you. Jesus with his arms extended. and Mother with a certain look of "look what I am giving you!!!! look at this dude!!!"
And then I went back to the Red Image and stood there for a long time admiring it.. From distance. I realized that I should have stood very close to it after I finished saying hi to all other saints.
Then I went around to say hi to all other saints so that I could get to the Red Image again
and so there I was, standing eye to eye with Divine Mother, baby Jesus, right in my face. I was looking at her face and it was sooooo.... sweet. AND THEN SOMETHING HAPPENED. I FELT MY HEART OPEN. LIKE I CAME OUT OF JAIL!!!! A HUGE SMILE CAME TO MY FACE AND I WAS SUDDENLY MYSELF AND HAPPY.
and then I realized where that rumble earthquake came from that I heard earlier - EVERY TIME EVEN ONE SINGLE PERSON OPENS THEIR HEART , THEY SEND A HUGE ENERGETIC EARTHQUAKE THAT WILL JUST SLAY THE EVEIL ALL OVER!!! THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE EARTH AND PROBABLY UNIVERSE!!!!
so that is why evil people use distractions to keep human hearts closed. A closed human heart is the works of the devil and is like ... a rotten piece of meat making this world a nasty place.
I walked out of that church on CLOUD NINE. I was FREE!!!!!
Thinking about my experiences, I realized that Archangel Michael, who was commissioned by God to battle and defeat the devil, and who WON, and is always potrayed with a sword and wings -
YEAH ANGEL WHO WEARS A SWORD AND IS A WARRIOR - how cool is that LOL But it is not of THAT kind of cool you are thinking of...
What I realized this evening that probably his "sword" is just being able to generate light by his "open heart" love and compassion.
Because what I saw tonight is that ONE OPEN HEART CAUSES A TSUNAMI OF LIGHT THAT SLAWS THE EVIL
So I walked away feeling like myself
I had fun dancing on the street with the great orchestra outside, and I ran barefoot through the park, etc etc etc
I WAS MYSELF
HAPPY AND FREE
and then I ran into a grumpy person who is not grateful nor loving and who is more like a ju**ie, looking for external fixes -
AND I FELT THE DIFFERENCE IN HOW I FEEL.
I FELT HOW THAT PERSON WAS DRAGGING ME DOWN INTO THEIR WORLD, DUMPING THEIR CLOSED HEART ON ME.
so all those people who ever bullied me or tried to exploit me, HAVE A CLOSED HEART and are just taking it onto someone else to make sure that OTHERS HAVE CLOSED HEARTS TOO.
I realized that when someone has a closed heart, they REALLY GET IRRITATED by someone who has an open heart, and they try to just STEP ON IT AND SQUISH IT.
So after feeling the difference,... I can now write volumes about the value of being in the right company. Where you feel seen appreciated, and loved. JUST BECAUSE. Not for any reason - like you got the right color of the skin, or you got the right connections or money or whatever. BUT JUST BC YOU ARE A LIVING BEING.
I feel really a lot more educated now.
ANd my mother - she is a hopeless case. My mother was so traumatized as a child that she cannot possibly be normal.
After my experience this evening, I see how trauma CAN lead to closing your heart
bc U felt how running into that grumpy person was closing my heart - and it was jus tone little incident..... My mother was severely tortured...
But the difference between her and me is that I hooked up with God real good, and she unplugged from God.
But me too is getting damaged the longer I stay close to my mother because the trauma is too much, my mother is just not there. SHE JUST CANNOT. It is beyond her spiritual ability. She cannot. Not because she is not capable. But BECAUSE SHE DOES NOT WANT TO TRY.
And that makes me feel frustrated. And that closes my heart. Abd THAT is super dangerous. It is equivalent to su***de. Closing the heart is equivalent to su***de.
It bothers me when my mother keeps complaining about certain problems in her life that SHE CAUSED TO HERSELF, for example the huge hernia. She complains AS IF SHE NEVER HAD TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT AND IT JUST FELL ONTO HER FROM THE SKY. And I get tired of listening to that and I am not patient in telling her to stop complaining if she is not going to DO anything about it.
It is like listening to a fat person complaining how hard it is for them to walk. Of course since they are 200 lbs overweight. SO WHY NOT STOP BITCHING AND WHY NOT START EATING BETTER FOOD AND MUSCLE INCREASE LIFESTYLE??? but somehow that fat person doesnt see it and just wants you to give them self pity for them not being able to walk, and you want to just snap at them HEY STOP EATING 100000000000000 CALLORIES EVERY DAY AND START EXERCISING!!!!! DUH!!!! but somehow they NEVER think of THAT option and you just feel frustrated and you DO tell them - well you caused that problem, if you dont want to solve it, then stop complaining.
A wild animal heard me saying something like this and FROZE. My energy wasnt right.
See, that fat person is about 4 years old. They CANNOT HEAR YOU. AND THEY DO NOT WANT TO HEAR YOU.
So if you are going to say something, you have to say it in a way they can understand. aND IT HAS TO BE SAID WITH TRUE GENUINE LOVE CARE AND COMPASSION OR ELSE YOU ARE JUST ... DUMPING IT ON THEM.
I will get there, I will get there!!!!! Where in 100% of situations I can be kind and calm while saying - hey what you are doing is bs, stop it, now! and stop bitching, i dont want to hear you bitch and just keep sitting on your sweet as # doing NOTHING!!!!! Get a grip!!!! you are an adult, for goodness' sake, why dont you TRY to live properly.... DO NOT expect me to give you my pity and to treat you as "poor you". Get off your butt and DO SOMETHING TO HELP YOURSELF. NOW.
Instead, the fat person wants to me say something like: "yes so many people have hard time walking, you are not the only one, it is an epidemic. And you are just too old and it is genetic and you have to eat all that meat, icecream and junk food because you need so many calories for your demanding job. Poor you, it is so hardon you, life is unfair... So be it... Did you try medication XYZ?"
I so dislike games people play. I really have no patience for that.
IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM, DO SOMETHING TO SOLVE IT.
DO NOT WHINE.
NO SNIVELLING.
