
09/18/2025
I have never felt so seen and understood.
Some context… I grew up a misunderstood, trauma-filled girl/teen who was always quiet about it. I didn’t even realize how negatively events and relationships at that time were affecting me. I think I subconsciously was seeking clarity and understanding when I went to college and chose to study psychology. During that time I found myself deeply drawn to the study of philosophy. So much so that I ended up getting degrees in both psychology and philosophy. None of that pairing made sense. In fact, the pressed against each other much like the repelling ends of magnets forced too close.
Then came early adulthood, 15 years in the mental health field and a massive spiritual awakening. And for the first time, with the emergence of my soulful self , my knowledge of philosophical perspectives, religion and psychology birthed a new version of myself that had been integrating for years.
15 years pass. I am a season healer, guide of consciousness and now a grandmother of three. And this past November took my knees right out from underneath me. I went into complete hibernation following a dive into the void. Im just beginning to re-emerge, following almost a year of intense healing and deep spiritual, historical and political study. I am a massivly upleveled version of myself. One who can not be seen or understood by many. In the gift of these paraphrased words from a client…. You have a new vibe. Like not a replacement vibe, an additional vibe. Really strong. Ruth Bader Ginsberg vibe. You’re just giving off this strong confidence and wisdom energy…. Best compliment. I have found power. A new spark.
And a few hours ago, another fiercly awakened soul sister send me this video.
My God. This video explains everything. It is who I am. It is what I’ve been going through. It is where, in many senses, I remain.
I don’t know when I’ll fully emerge but I’m starting. Thank you to everyone who has stood outside my fractured, healing energy fully supporting and waiting for my springtime without judgment or abandonment. There have been many who have not. Those who remain will remain. Nothing more. That is clear with a level of crystalline Christ consciousness like I’ve never felt before.
If you want to understand me and those like me, please watch.
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