10/10/2025
I dont often post about myself personally on this page, but perhaps it could offer valid insight.
It is my belief that I was reincarnated into this body. My spirit agreed to the life and chain of human events it would reincarnate into for a deeper purpose that I can't always understand. Because I am in human form. For whatever reason, my spirit chose to experience the things I have in this lifetime and will experience in this lifetime for a deeper purpose out of higher consciousness.
Sometimes I think its flat out stupid. I get frustrated. I don't understand. But I know I will when I die. When I die and go back home it will all make sense.
This life has been nothing short of hard, painful and traumatic. But in some ways it has been beautiful. Sometimes I feel homesick, and sometimes I feel like this isn't reasonable to go through.
I won't go into personal details on my diagnoses and life events, but its been wild.
What do you do...sit and suffer, or accept life on life's terms and grow and find joy?
Some days I choose to be cranky, but 9/10 I choose joy.
There are nights when the house is still and everyone is sleeping that i perform energy work on myself. There are times I sit and talk to passed loved ones and spirit guides and ask for insight. Often, I ask my passed loved ones to hold my hand through this human experience.
Because sometimes we need to sit and feel hurt, despair, and disappointment...but can then also pick ourselves up, accept what we cannot control, and choose joy.
Today, my human body is exhausted physically, tired mentally, and in a state of lull spiritually.
But I can ask the universe for a little help. I can ask for clear guidance, I can rewire new paths and cords throughout me, I can remove generational curses and I can drop the heaviness emotionally on my body. I can ask the universe for opportunities, assistance, financial gains, better relationships, and more joy....and 10/10 times it gives me just that when I channel myself and ask.
And this is why I do what I do...this is why I help others heal. This is why I give a human voice to animals and passed loved ones, and treat peoples physical pains and griefs, so that we can all heal and grow. What I have the ability to do is an absolute blessing that I strive to share with all who reach out. Because I want to help others have the tools that I have.
I will share some of the joy I have already experienced today: a nice hot mug of coffee, looking out at the beautiful frost coating the woods and fields, a warm home that I am able to provide myself with, and wonderful friends to start my morning with. Bandit is chewing a hoof along side me, loki is nuzzled up between my legs napping, and jasper is laying nearby, present in this moment. Last night I did some energy work on myself that really shifted me. I feel a lot more peace today and a lot more footed in my grounding. My back pain is gone and my head feels calmer. I feel less overwhelmed with balancing exams and studying with a 44 hour work week.
I feel reminded today that this is all a very human experience and my soul in of itself is a deeper and calmer vessel that expresses pure love and joy and acceptance that is steering this ship exactly where it needs to go.
I hope that you find peace today. I hope you find joy, I hope you feel the peace of sharing your space with a loved one. I hope that you choose happiness. We all have the right to joy, even when things are hard.