05/31/2021
The hardest thing is to let go
I remember the first time I went climbing with my son. It wouldn’t normally be my cup of tea, I have lived a long time knowing when it comes to heights, I am a paradox, I both love heights and am incredibly fearful of falling.
Because he is qualified on all kinds of things outdoors and climbing, with full trust for his experience an knowledge, I let him teach me. He showed me how to put on the gear, told me how to hold on to the wall and then to just start climbing. It was so fun making my way, up, across, over and around the wall until the moment I was supposed to let go so that he could support my descent.
You see, in that moment, I not only had to say, I trust you, I had to put action behind it. The only way back to terra firma was to let go, release my grip. I’ve done a lot of scary things in my life but this fear blindsided me. I wasn’t prepared to be having so much fun and then to feel so much fear.
Today, as I walk through the former studio space I know I need to release my grip. In my heart, I know this space is not the studio. I know I am not the studio. I know that the studio is that place where you and your breath meet to nourish your body. What we experienced here in this space is in reality with you in your connection to your breath.
So what will happen over the next little bit while I figure this next chapter out is still not clear, but what is clear is that it is a process. As a yoga teacher trainer, one of my goals is to inspire teachers that will nourish their beginner’s mind. As a yoga teacher, one of my goals is to show the power of allowing importance to nourish strength, flexibility, and ease. This transition is calling me to intentionally embrace the beginner’s mind with courageous love so I can love better.
I wish I had taken a picture with you, of you, of us in this space. Next time, I will. Next time I wont be so shy about telling the world what wonderful things happen on our mats. For now, I want to thank you.
Thank you for coming to your mat each and every time. Thank you for courageously working with your sometimes not so willing body, overcoming your doubt, and allowing yourself to feel better, stronger, and healthier. Thank you for letting me be a part of that in your life.
Twelve years is a long time. In some perspectives, it is a completion of a cycle. One cycle must complete so that another can begin. While this space becomes cold with air conditioning, then noisy with the sounds of demolition and rebuilding, it will become filled with the chatter of people living and doing their best.
In letting go, I’ll lock the door one final time with gratitude for the every soul that has been touched by the work of each breath you completed on your mat. It has been my profound pleasure to know you, to see you, to watch your courage grow breath by breath, and your body and mind transform one drop of sweat at a time.
I hope you’ll want to stay connected, to stay in tune with the next step, the next chapter in this journey. I know it’s going to be amazing!
With deep, abiding trust and endless curiosity for the process,
Peace IN
Radiance OUT
Rommy Kirby