09/15/2025
There’s this myth that eventually it slows down.
That one day there will be a pause, a breather, a break.
But for a special needs mama, the weight never really leaves.
The appointments keep coming.
The worries keep circling.
The hyper-vigilance never switches off.
Even when my body is still, my mind is racing.
Even when my child is sleeping, I’m already rehearsing what tomorrow might bring.
Even when I’m smiling at a friend, part of me is calculating what crisis might be waiting just around the corner.
This isn’t negativity, it’s truth.
The job doesn’t end, and the stakes are always high.
So if you’re here too - if your shoulders ache from carrying it all, if your heart feels raw from never really resting - please know this:
You’re not weak for feeling this heaviness.
You’re not failing because you need a break you rarely get.
You’re doing something hard.
And you’re not alone.
- Christine x
Special Soul Mama