08/12/2025
"You forced me to study narcissism. Now enjoy my educated ass."
I never planned to become fluent in manipulation, gaslighting, trauma bonding, and emotional warfare. I never wanted to learn about the dark corners of the human psyche, or how someone could wear a mask so well they could fool even the most intuitive hearts. But you made it necessary. You left me confused, questioning my worth, blaming myself for things I didnât do, and doubting my own reality. And when the pain became unbearable, I did what you never expectedâI started digging.
I read, I watched, I listened. I studied patterns, behaviors, red flags, psychological terms, and survival stories. I dissected every conversation, every silent treatment, every lie you told with a straight face. And somewhere in all that research, I found me againâthe real me. Not the broken version you tried to mold, but the strong, intuitive, self-aware version that was buried under your manipulation.
You thought you were destroying me, but you were actually educating me. I became fluent in your tactics. I learned how narcissists charm, then chip away at your spirit. I learned how they rewrite history, play the victim, twist your words, and weaponize your kindness. You taught me more than any book ever could, not because you wanted toâbut because your cruelty forced me to wake up.
Now, I see through people like you in minutes. I spot the red flags, hear the double meanings, and feel the manipulation in the air before a word is even spoken. You turned me into someone who can't be fooled again.
So yes, you forced me to study narcissism.
Now enjoy my educated assâbecause the version of me who tolerated your nonsense?
They donât exist anymore.
