10/23/2025
For years, I believed I was lazy.
I believed something was fundamentally wrong with me because no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t keep up.
By the end of high school, I was failing several classes.
I barely made it through community college, dropping out more than once.
Every failure felt like proof that I was the problem.
But what no one told me then and what I didn’t understand until years later, is that who you are when you’re being abused, neglected, and traumatized regularly
is not who you actually are.
My “laziness” was pure exhaustion.
My lack of motivation was a nervous system frozen in survival.
My brain wasn’t wired for thriving; it was wired for detecting danger.
And when your body lives in fight, flight, or freeze long enough, it shuts down everything that isn’t about survival.
Focus, curiosity, hope, even the desire to dream.
Then something changed.
I found safety. Not all at once, but slowly.
And as my body began to believe it wasn’t in danger anymore, my brain chemistry shifted.
Energy came back. Creativity returned.
I started to feel alive for the first time. I went back to school and found it EASY to learn and maintain good grades.
Pete Walker said,
“Effective recovery is unwinding the natural potential you were born with out of your unconscious. This is your innate potential which may be, as yet, unrealized because of your childhood trauma.”
Your potential isn’t gone—it’s been waiting.
And when your body learns safety, you start meeting the person you were always meant to be.
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