08/07/2025
🌞Good morning!🌞
The one year mark has come and gone, maybe not acknowledging it would mean it didn’t happen, now I just feel guilty. As I sit here on my front porch with Buddy, leaning into me, my right arm around him, I reflect. 😔
(I’m trying to dictate this so I can hold onto Buddy, it’s hard because my voice is shaky as the tears run down my face).
I get up every day, thankful, thankful for the gifts I’ve been blessed with. However, somewhere along the way, I seem to have lost myself. Why? Maybe the open-heart surgery, maybe losing Hank, maybe some of the other health issues that are staring me in the face every day, maybe some of the other challenges in our family, I don’t know! I always tell people we have a choice, we can choose to sit idle, or we can choose to fight back. We can be defunded by an illness or a set back… NO, just NO!! I’ve never thought of myself as being idle, not ever! Every day I’m looking for a solution to feel better to be better! Yet, here I am! I must do better, I must feel better, for me, for my family and most of all God! God didn’t send us to this earth to just settle, I believe he sent us here to make an epic difference, I’m still looking for my purpose and will not give up.😇
Losing Hank, was a devastating blow to our whole entire family, heartbreaking to the highest level. As truly painful as open heart surgery was I would do that 10 times over again to avoid feeling the pain of losing Hank. I always knew what a tremendous difference he made in my life for so many reasons, as my service dog, he was life-saving , not only to me, but to so many others. People still approach me, telling me stories of how he saved their lives, TRULY, alerting a stranger, them listening, finding out they had something they had no clue they had, Hank saved people! I still, to this day, believe he was a true fur angel, sent here to save me, to save others….Hank you were successful, my friend!😇🐾
Since Hank, my Addison‘s has gone over a cliff! I always thought I was so aware, Hank helped me do that, but I truly didn’t realize how much he did, I thought I had more self-awareness of this disease. I was so wrong! This whole process has been tricky and I can’t say I’ve been overly successful, I’m still learning!🙃
What am I doing? I’m trying to get back into life, despite what challenges are thrown at me, at us! That Choice?! I choose to live my best life, I choose happiness, I choose health, I choose to keep searching for the best me I can truly find. No more sitting in this reclusive place that I have found myself in…I need, I want to get back into my life. I want to find my purpose!
Am I doing this? I’m diligently working on it every day! Am I succeeding? I don’t know, what I do know is.. I will never give up! There have been those days and I’m sure there will be other days where I feel like giving up, quitting is not in my DNA. Have I succeeded? I’m here…putting it out to the world, it’s a very real struggle and I know so many of my friends and so many others have similar struggles, fighting with what strength they have left to find that peace, to find that bit of courage, a bit more strength…
If you are searching, I say don’t give up, keep fighting, it’s worth the fight! God didn’t give up on us so I believe we must not give up on him, not give up on this gift he has blessed us with. Find your purpose, find your peace!!💪
Side note….if you are judging others or have felt judged by others, look in the mirror, before casting blame, shame, opinions…fix you first and after you have successfully fixed yourself, instead of casting your opinion on others, how about you pray for them, lend them a hand, reach out, say something kind…ANYTHING but judgement!
Be blessed beautiful people in this beautiful world!
🙏🙏❤️🥰🐾💪
I will treasure these moments, the times and the memories in this video, below, always! Forever grateful!🐾🐾
Hank, I will be forever thankful I was chosen to be your person, your sidekick, your best friend . You saved my life on how many occasions and for that ther...
