09/23/2024
Sharing this week’s Substack 🙏🏻 ✨
I’m stacking firewood today. I was not looking forward to today because it felt full of tasks and chores that are secondary, processes towards what I want and value, but not the things I want and value themselves. This shifted after I dowsed for this week’s essence, Elephant.
The first thing elephant showed me was insincerity, the way in which we tell ourselves and others little white lies, bypass and delay as a means of avoiding what needs to happen or what is actually happening. Sometimes our real intention is to delay as long as possible, but we’re ashamed to admit it.
The problem is less about the thing we are failing do than it is about the shame we feel and the fact that we deny feeling it. And yet, sometimes doing the thing that causes us to feel the shame is the way to dissolve it. I feel shame about being irresponsible and lazy, having it too easy. And yet I also have a desire to have a rich life where I am able to stack my own firewood, raise rabbits, have a garden, etc. I genuinely desire and value those things, but sometimes when I’m doing the chores and tasks of my life, I am faced with my lack of skill or knowledge. It makes me feel far behind the rest of the world. And then I’m faced with the possibility that the thing I fear about myself might actually be true.
But with Elephant essence, that’s not what happened. I feel present to the day and feel a reclaimed ownership of my life. There isn’t any busy work, which is just another means of avoidance (as well as disbelief that we can have what we want). This is what I am doing today and it is part of a larger creation that I am creating. It’s worth it.
When creating our lives and bringing our dreams into fruition, it happens one step at a time. Elephant is showing us that we can experience the realness and profundity of that larger vision, now, in the one step that today is inviting us to accomplish.
*This flower vignette was guided by Elephant essence from Delta Gardens