09/17/2024
I would like to share something personal tonight along with just observations I suppose.
In my life I have experienced 3 true disordered narcissists…I believe I actually dreamt of this and it actually came in the way of a trilogy type dream.. it’s the only time this has ever happened in my life… to pick up on a different night (mare) where the last one had left off… the settings were different every time, but the (what I believe to be now) demon, was always the same..I understand now this was a foretelling of what would happen throughout my life… through 3 relationships, this demon would find a vessel to try and break me… just like in my dreams during my high school years. This is the only dream that I’d continue to think of over the years but couldn’t make sense of it or understand why the mental flashbacks of it still scared me somehow and they were over 20 years ago at this point. I’m 42 years old now.. it wasn’t until maybe a year or two ago I finally understood what I saw in these dreams would be the same entity I was going to be coming up against later in life in the physical bodies of relationships I’d be in (2 significant and 1 because it wasn’t done with me yet ). I don’t tell this story because I know it sounds pretty wild I suppose… the all blackness in their eyes the first time you see it is unforgettable … my mother actually saw it too the first time it happened with my sons dad (this was 22 years ago) and it’s still scary to her also. I think the moments I recognized in each one, the feeling first was that I knew this “person” was empty.. in the way of having no spirit …what was looking back at me was darkness… this was something evil … actually looking at me. I do not mean that in any figurative way.
I guess my point to all that was, it seemed like, crazy to me like HOW am I having this same experience with people? And nowadays, it seems this is becoming commonplace that this is happening more and more for so many..… I have to wonder why…could it be that intentionally or unintentionally, people are opening themselves up for spiritual entities…in my opinion, yes. make no mistake… we call them narcissists but it’s the devil. Period.
