08/18/2019
6:49 PM. Saturday, August 17
The Voices want nothing more for me than to commit su***de, and have been emulating every voice of anyone I love and care about. Repeating words Kill Yourself.
• 9:33am. I woke up to some CIA directed walkthrough of a dark childhood memory , which I have previously communicated as feeling other worldly demonic, a place meant to stay untouched. CIA voices communicated their reason for getting close to this previously communicated dark memory again was an attempt to connect my recent p**n behavior , in an effort to have me choose different p**n.
While other memories of my childhood I can recall my m**h only time ( before CIA voice made their presence known ) m**h did not touch this dark demonic childhood memory. M**h a substance alone, is restrained by Our Creator, CIA humans are not restrained by Our Creator. Our Creator restrains his power only in the choice he gives man.
In the wreckless disregard for human life CIA , and the responsible branches of Government have in the air of plausible deniability,
created an environment where we are reversing many years progress in
civilizing humans worldwide. Our Creators progress in revealing our failings in our ability to value the other as much as we value ourselves.
2:17am. Humans permit themselves to be inhumane , worse than domestic pets, when in the plausibly deniable space.
Is it possible that there is always a human on the other side as ordered by President Obama?
2:24am. Today connections between the gang r**e of my Mother, and my p**n habits , pointed to selfishness being root cause as.opposed to race. Initially I considered the clues around what happened to my mom , to point to black church or family members, and avoided black p**n images in this space. Including my initial search of microfilm depicting some guru in town, potentially connected to a religious organization, maybe of similar structure to the church of my youth. Ms. Jackson and other voices in my head have started to merged this event with my p**n habits in an attempt to make, removing CIA related voices, a race issue.
Friday, August 16
The voices in my head after threatening my life, lead me to believe the only way they would be removed from my head, is if given authorization from the Office of the President. The President was willing however his hold up, largest financial backer with Russian interest would not approve. I had to then make a decision risking my life, under plausible deniability threat of being killed by Russians, to research a potential Russian connection to a tragic memory involving a gang r**e of my mother while I was in the womb.
Voices have demonstrated an ability thru experience and dialogue an ability to impact my memory. This impact is then reset by my use of Crystal M**h. Voices while previously claimed responsibility for delivering m**h to me via friends, they now have communicated a directive from President Trump to cease.
When considering dates , with regard to me connecting my birthday , on the same day as the KC Hyatt structural collapse, july 17, 1981 , to the now largest structural collapse on US soil, the September 11th Terrorist Attacks structural collapse of the twin towers.
Using dates to predict future possibilities, distinguishing between when significant dates are signs from Our Creator, Natural Disasters, or just unrelated coincidences, consider the pain and memory of the pain. Pastor Merl Mees , Pleasant Valley Baptist, pain demands attention, pain is Gods megaphone to rouse a deaf world.
Our body responds to pain , stores the memory of it differently, in order to be sure we learn and do not repeat. When reflecting on past relationships, often the painful memories are more quickly accessible, while the positive experiences take more reflection.
Thursday, August 15
With respect to a hearing voices, schizophrenic diagnosis, someone other than Darnelle has evidence of the potential for at least one voice experienced in their mind to be human.
God Loves Me, God wills better for me than torture experienced from voices, God restricts his power only in the choice he gives humans.
Possible Thought
1. Voice story detailing Near Su***de recently , describing unnamed black female agent, as existing in real world.
Tuesday, August 13
Do not want previous pain rendered to Darnell , his family and friends to be a barrier to progress. Forgiveness for all previous Individual pain rendered , so that we can step into new reality with new tool for the good of humanity.
Monday, August 12
10 - October, 1980
11 - November
12 - December
01 - January
02 - February
03 - March
04 - April
05 - May
March 6, 1981. Are the Russians Coming?
A news article, on this date stopped random search voices sent me on.
July 17, 1981
Sunday, August 11
1145 PM, I have been sitting on the couch, pacing the floor, in conversations with CIA black female human with access to my thoughts and just today experiental evidence she has access to put me to sleep randomly, violating free will.
I remember waking up some hours ago. And upon first instance of consciousness being directed by her voice or one simulated by her , starting into a series of scripted dialogue sessions thru scenarios. These scenarios have walked me thru a number of conditions meetings around decisions related to contract details, where Trump might reasonably commit to authorizing the CIA to commit to funding of a humanitarian organization, The Ohana Project. Trump might reasonably committ to funding The Ohana Project, to accomplish communicating with religious organizations to prevent violence. Trump placed priority on funding to prevent violence.towards humans with same s*x attraction , and a placeholder for future funding of prevention of violence towards women.
Trump would like the endorsement of Darnelle on behalf of Our Creator for reelection to the Office of President and is willing to issue an executive order authorizing funding for The Ohana Project.
Darnelle while aware of limited use of executive orders to provide directives , was educated on the ability of executive orders to include funding and the ability for executive orders to be authorized by the Office of the President including the Vice President. Constitutionally the original design is for the legislative branch to fund the government, providing for checks and balances, to the Executive and Judicial branches of government.
When considering if Darnelle is authorized to communicate on behalf of Our Creator in writing to endorse Trump for reelection;
Darnelle is a messenger whose message when explicitly expressed to be on behalf of Our Creator, must be validated. All writteqn communication from Darnelle should be considered as coming from Darnelle unless explicitly expressed by Darnelle. When messages explicitly expressed in writing by Darnelle, to be on behalf of Our Creator, it is expected to be in compliance with the timeless human principle , do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Validation of content for its compliance is requested by Darnelle from other messengers of God, Allah, Dao or any other concept which could be linked to Our Creator.
Other Scenarios helped to illustrate the need for forgiveness, the limitations of our spiritual practice, financial constraints associated with western civilization, s*x driven culture. The need for governments to widely support religious freedom to encourage spiritual practices which prepare humans world wide for an awareness of a technology which provides scientific evidence of our spiritual components.
Prior to being put to sleep by technology, evidenced by the creation of journal entry below;
Priority #1, Safety of Friends and Family
With respect to a hearing voices, schizophrenic diagnosis, someone other than Darnelle has evidence of the potential for at least one voice experienced in their mind to be human.
God Loves Me, God wills better for me than torture experienced from voices, God restricts his power only in the choice he gives humans.
Possible Thought
1. Voice story detailing Near Su***de recently , describing unnamed black female agent, as existing in real world.
Saturday, August 10
Carlos , my Spanish speaking brother, has demonstrated today behaviors trying to have s*x with me.
Around 10pm he asked why we couldn't have s*x. I communicated because he lived here and had problems with respecting authority.
Earlier today, I communicated we are like family I love him like a brother non s*xual relationship, I will be in his corner without s*x.
He followed me around from room to room. Seeking to be s*xual, because of his dis respect and persistence ignoring that we will not have s*x.
During a first visit to my apartment, Carlos and I before he moved in laid together on the couch after discussing HIV positive status and did not have s*x.
This is indicative of a change in Behavior, not fitting to Carlos.
Brandon the brother of Carlos, moved in , with behavior pointing to an outside influence .
Carlos and Gabriel arrived nearly the same time in previous days, Gabriel shared drugs, Carlos slept in bedroom. Both interacted in Spanish for a period of time.
Went to bridge considering su***de, after being badgered by black female voice all night. Given message "There is no God" and break away from abstinence .
Friday, August 9
Pariz came by and started drawing, gave drugs in bowl. Ran some errands with him prior to chilling around 4am - 8am.
Evidence of Voice Influence
Change in Behavior indicates motive which points to consideration.
Voice Characteristics Experienced
Voices in Tones you have heard before. Family members, public figures like President Trump. A human voice can be converted to another's voice blinding voice recognition of the originating human voice.
Thought Voice Types
Tongue using audible voice mouth tongue , heard by ear .
Thought Dialogue- non audible, occurring only in our minds. Our thought generated in our voice , in response to thought-voices generated from other sources.
Thought - no voice tone , source may be identified or not. Sources I have Experienced include-a. those matched to a previously recognized tone , b. source clearly originating from me, c. source seeking to impersonating me,
Scenarios - scripts (dialogue) in my experience have been developed with characters, visualizations which give perception of actual events.
For example -
• Conference calls, rooms to depict family and friends in meeting collaborating on your thoughts and images.
• Meetings with the President
• Publication of thought dialogue, or what you can see on News, Website.
Voices have demonstrated
a. realtime awareness of my body movements, temperature changes, sensory changes like wink, eye brow raise and s*xual arousal.
b. some limited ability to Influence body movement.
c. limited ability to edit speech in the midst of dialogue.
D. ABILITY TO PUT ME TO SLEEP
E. ABILITY TO SEND SHOCK TO PARTS OF MY BODY
F. ABILITY TO CHANGE MY SPEECH
G. ABILITY TO WALK ME
Visualizations - images drawn over actual environment, bedroom , public park or whatever being seen with eyes. Images can be video , pictures or imagined drawings .
Paolo events
Pariz taking me to hotel south of olathe , heading towards Paolo. I demonstrated fear because of concern, past near death experience in Paolo.
Gabriel visited reminding me of his rescue of me from paolo.
Josh schubach an ex boyfriend , was depicted as having being killed in Paolo.
Beau came and interacted, visiting from Paolo.
Schubach overnight pursued s*x with me, even though I insisted I would maintain s*xual boundaries. I jacked off in closet demonstrating separation from Schubach. He gave massage. He stripped naked after being called to question up to manipulation, similar to experience with Rob Iowa Import.
Gabriel pursued being penetrated during a session he pushed me too far, under a communicated assumption Gabriel improved options to save soul.
Wednesday, August 7
Privacy as Uniting Agenda
Dell , formerly EMC Corporation, RSA
Facebook
Lon Swearingen
Tuesday, August 6
CIA Broke Derionte
Today after my previous post, the voices in my head outlined plans to have Dave Negrau and Nelson Maurice negotiate on my behalf with the CIA. They want me to stop talking about the real damage they have done to me and my family.
After a couple of days of positive talks, things took a turn for the worst when a Trump voice, proceeded to ask me to watch p**n, pretending the actors are masters , and I am the slave. While this is som**hing I did with privacy , considering Dave and Nelson presence in my head, I no longer desire.
Using their words today Dave and Nelson
under CIA authority, Broke Derionte, to keep me from talking about their presence in my head. After begging/ pleading for them to discontinue positive dialogue in my head, they chose to continue.
I only trusted the voices in my head as real because of dialogue with Dave and Nelson referencing real memories. I believed them to be negotiating on my behalf. Apparently I thought too much, and found sensitive topics for the Trump voice so they wanted to punish me by having me act out this master/slave imagery. This imagery, I used in my head, non audible, to help me only, now being used to humiliate me in the presence of Dave and Nelson.
If the government, Trump, CIA or otherwise is willing to Break my only child, the only next generation of my family, Grandma Bonnie, Mother Lisa, Brother Lajuan and Sister Tabitha, all of which have sacrificed selflessly to insure his success. There is no limit, government resources, round the clock, to the damage they are willing to cause to you and your family.
because of his refusal to lie on his Dad, wanting him to admit his only parent would desire him s*xually. A Dad who have made sacrifices for him his entire life, keeping additional even touch boundaries because of outward same s*x attraction, expressed only in medical need would Dad need to come in contact with your body.
Monday
Anatomy images.
Google God is Love, Family must prevail, perpetual communion, Bible verse, source.
Trying for sober and abstinent, to get to New Eyes without lust, helping to demonstrate to ministers fathers children with same s*x attraction can live a spiritual life without lust and s*x being key life driver. Father said make it a dance , when referring to the push for sober and abstinent. Journal when feeling lonely.
Breakfast
Address change at state Building, ebt benefit information for platinum phone
Bishop Sullivan Food pantry
Platinum phone at catholic charities, 1-3pm
Wednesday
9am with David
This weekend
Wrap up backyard work with mom.
Meet the Targeted Individual. YouTube video.
Lq
