06/21/2023
I have not posted on social media in a long time. Simply, I have been struggling and grieving most of 2023. I have retreated, pulled back and put myself in survival mode. Normally I can bring myself out of hard times, using my tools that I have accumulated during my life’s journey. Yoga, meditation, prayer, spiritual fellowship, my friends/family and nature have helped me keep an energetic positive outlook and stay in the present when things are hard. Not this time.
Thankfully my work as a healer has kept pulling me back into the present moment and on the right path. Losing 2 dear young friends to cancer within 6 weeks of each other has left me with an unbearable ache. This ache has left me feeling scared, unbalanced, angry, fearful and I have not been myself. When I am unbalanced it works its way into every part of my life…sleeping, heart racing, overwhelm, anger, sadness and other things falling apart. I have had to conserve my energy. I have wanted to and have cried at a moment’s notice. I have asked why is this happening to me all at once? The answer is.. this is part of the plan, part of God’s masterful plan to get me to where I am supposed to be.
What we have left after hurt, heartbreak and turmoil are the gifts and the lessons that life teaches us. We learn that we never know when our time on this earth will come to an end. We never know when God will call us up. We simply have today.
What we do have is the responsibility to live life with joy, peace and passion. To love with every bit of us. To forgive, to stop passing judgment, to pursue our dreams. If you don’t think you struggle, think again. You do. If you think that other people’s lives seem perfect, think again. They aren’t. I wear my struggles with a badge of honor and armor for the future.
All we can do is live hour by hour, day by day and try to love ourselves and others as much as we can. As a friend of a friend wrote:
Make priorities. Make the time. Let your qualities be known. Make people feel important. Make your voice heard. Make someone smile. Make the change. Make peace. Make sure you tell people you love them. Love yourself and be happy with what you have. Get it together.❤️
