04/02/2026
In 2023, I was hanging out with one of my good friends - who is also in the wellness space & an actor - as she described her lifestyle:
“I get to teach yoga, do my auditions, have my business, and I don’t have to worry about finances.”
Her husband provided - not to say she wasn’t also making her own income, because she was - but she didn’t have the stress (anymore) of working a million side jobs unrelated to her purpose, splitting everything 50/50, and wondering if she’d have to take an extra shift to pay rent.
As someone who did that whole dance (the stressful one) throughout most of my 20s and early 30s, she expanded me
Especially since she is a driven person with goals and dreams, just like me, NOT the stereotypical woman you may picture in those circumstances (which in itself is a s**t judgement)
“I want that,” my heart whispered, only to be immediately shut down by my ego.
“You’re so entitled.”
“You must prove you don’t need help.”
“Must be nice to have that option as an attractive woman.”
But thankfully, I ignored those voices, and a year later manifested an amazing partner who also happens to be a provider, and happy to have that role (while also supporting me in my aspirations).
Yet, I realized this week, I am still entrenched in guilt every time I get a car wash in the middle of the day (like I am now), walk my dogs during work hours, or buy something that I didn’t “work hard” for.
AND I’M OVER IT!
When I release the old story - I love my life! I love every minute of my coaching sessions, my auditions & time on set, and I love doing random errands in the middle of the day 🥰
And - above all - I love my partner and myself for allowing this to be possible.
If this triggers you, I’m sending you love. I’m sorry you bought into the lies of modern feminism (not all feminism - just the iteration that glorifies working till you get an autoimmune disease) and society as a whole.
It’s never too late to shift and heal ♥️