02/24/2021
I'm tired...🙄 Tired of trying to live up to the unattainable expectations of one or two or anyone else. I struggle just as much as anyone else. I am not invisible, though at times I feel that way. I may look like I have it all together but inside I am still a work in progress.
My truth..
My journey has not always been an appealing one in the eyes of others but to me it's amazing. Without it I would not be. Some who have known me a lifetime understand the surprise of me even being alive today.
I have lived through some of the most unimaginable of circumstances; in childhood, family, life, addiction, weight, marriage, business and self love... I have struggled, I have cried, I have failed, I have lost lives of loved ones, I been disrespected in love, and most times I have found it hard to breathe. There are days when I don't feel that I deserve abundance. I have dealt with things that most have never in a lifetime. Too much to bare or even go into. I do not say this to seek pitty, I do not speak my truth in hopes of seeking acceptance. I say this because I know someone out there needs it. Needs to hear that they are not alone in the journey. Everyday is real to me, not a fantasy or a dress up game. Life is a struggle for many right now. With all I am up against in my life, I choose to run a business to help others to give a space to release judgements, to have a chance to be seen. I don't care if I'm poor or broken or have nothing to give, or even feel like I die a little everyday. I will always be the one to give not only the shirt off my back but I will give you the shoes off my feet to walk in. I will offer love even when love has failed me My soul runs deep my love and respect run in my veins, this is me! Why? Because I believe in a better tomorrow, I believe in a better u and I beleive in a better me. I am sorry if who I am offends. I have learned that living up to expectations is impossible, so I am only me.
Be true to yourself💙