Looking Forward Counseling

07/19/2025

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07/14/2025

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“Whenever I leave this world, whether it’s sixty years from now, I wouldn’t want anyone to say I lost some battle. I’ll be a winner that day.” – Andrea Gibson

Andrea Gibson was a winner today. On July 14th, at 4:16AM, Andrea Gibson died in their home surrounded by their wife, Meg, four ex-girlfriends, their mother and father, dozens of friends, and their three beloved dogs.

Poet Laureate of Colorado, world-touring spoken word artist, author of seven books, Calais Maine High School State Basketball Champion, and subject of the award-winning documentary, “Come See Me in the Good Light”, and so much more — Andrea Gibson accomplished much on their 49 years on this planet. Though Andrea desperately wished to have lived a longer life, they could not have possibly lived a fuller one.

Since learning they had cancer in 2021, Andrea has been a champion of finding beauty in unlikely places and gratitude in the hardest hours. Over the last four years, they danced with their diagnosis, and continually aimed their internal compass toward joy. One of the last things Andrea said on this plane was, “I fu***ng loved my life.”

Not long ago, Andrea wrote a poem titled “Love Letter From the Afterlife.” In it, they offered this line: “I am more here than I ever was before. I am more with you than I ever could have imagined.” Today, and all days forward, we hope you feel Andrea’s enormous spirit and immense presence beside you.

Meg and Heather, the authors of this post, have absolutely no idea how to encapsulate the magnitude and magnificence of a life like Andrea Gibson’s, so they intend to keep writing, to keep telling Andrea’s story, to keep Andrea alive in every way they can.

Andrea would want you to know that they got their wish. In the end, their heart was covered in stretch marks.

Andrea Gibson 8/13/75 - 7/14/25

07/12/2025

“The doors to the world of the wild Self are few but precious. If you have a deep scar, that is a door, if you have an old, old story, that is a door. If you love the sky and the water so much you almost cannot bear it, that is a door. If you yearn for a deeper life, a full life, a sane life, that is a door.”

- Dr. Clarissa Pinkola Estes,"Women Who Run With The Wolves"

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Photos by Brooke Aldrich Photography

07/12/2025

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07/01/2025

🌿 Ceremonial Sound Healing Rituals 🌿

✨ For Life’s Sacred Thresholds ✨

Offered by Delia at Looking Forward Counseling

Immersive Sound Healing – Intention Setting – Meditation –Creative Keepsake Craft- Breathwork – Poem Written For You – Blessing with Sage, Rosewater, Orange Blossom &
Lavender
From baby blessings to sacred feminine circles to bridal rituals to divorce transitions, or celebrations of life—these 90-
minute soul-led offerings hold space for healing, honoring, and new beginnings. Each
ceremony is curated with intention, breath, sound, and symbolic ritual.
💫 Offerings & Pricing:

👫 Couple Ritual – $500
A shared healing space for two. Perfect for transitions in love, family, or loss.

🌸 Small Group (3–6 people) – $600

Ideal for sacred sisterhoods, family blessings, bridal circles, or communal grief honoring.

🎁 Keepsake Add-On – $125 Includes a framed printed poem written especially for you

Based on your preferred theme, memory or calling, dried flowers, affirmation deck, essential oil and a grounding stone.

🕊 Community Tier Offering – 2 per quarter

Sliding scale available ($222–$333). Inquire to apply.

📍Based in Lakewood, Colorado

Travel available upon request ($75-150 travel fee)

🪷 Includes altar design, custom poetry, breathwork, 40-min sound bath, and seed planting ritual

📩 DM to inquire or book your date!

06/27/2025

06/20/2025

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Dr. Eger reminds us that we have the ability to create the life we desire regardless of our past. Your healing journey can lead you to an incredible and inspiring life.

Join Dr. Eger and the Soul Search team this Wednesday for a free 90 minute workshop to chart the course toward becoming the true and dynamic you.

To register simply write: “awakening” and we’ll send you the link.

Thank you!

Team Edie

06/20/2025

🌸 This is What We Celebrate at Looking Forward 🌸

Happy Friday!

🌈✨ And Happy Pride from Looking Forward Counseling ✨🌈

This video is a radiant anthem of reclamation — a dance of joy, power, and unapologetic selfhood.

It’s what we celebrate here every day in self reclamation:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xPs2ag4lRGk&list=RDxPs2ag4lRGk&start_radio=1

💫Feminist healing. The sacred act of coming home to yourself.

At Looking Forward Counseling, we hold space for the stories that were silenced, the identities that were questioned, and the hearts that were told to shrink.

Here, you are not too much.
You are a miracle.
You are a revolution wrapped in skin.
And your joy?
It’s holy.

Here for embodying love, advocacy, equity and tenderness in every month and every season.

🌿 This Pride, and always, may you be met with safety, softness, and spaces that honor your whole self.

With you, for you.

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📍 Lakewood, CO | Inclusive therapy & healing spaces
🌐 www.lookingforwardcounseling.com



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xPs2ag4lRGk&list=RDxPs2ag4lRGk&start_radio=1

At Looking Forward Counseling, we celebrate feminist healing in all its forms.

✨ The unapologetic return to self
✨ The release of shame
✨ The sacredness of pleasure, voice, rest, and power

This is not just therapy. It’s restoration. It’s remembering.
It’s a space where your story, your softness, your strength, and your becoming are all welcome.

💫 Come as you are. Leave with more of yourself.
📍 Lakewood, CO | Individual & Group Offerings
🌐 www.lookingforwardcounseling.com

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06/18/2025

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04/16/2025

Performative versus relational healing is not healing. Idealizing growth and only recognizing those parts and devaluing past selves or the impact on others is not healing. Obsession with self improvement as identity regulation is not healing. Toxic traits that have been normalized deserve your awareness and enduring accountability for its emotional impact. Check in with your gut. Check in with your wisdom. Check in with your worth. It is spiritual bypassing cloaked as heroism. Reclaim your voice. Own your story. Trust your gut when there are unreliable narrators manipulating the truth. You are living proof. You deserve to heal. Generational cycles do not get broken easily--honor the growing pains. You now and forever will always deserve more 💚

04/12/2025

This spring, I've been diving into offering more insight about the dark triad of personalities -- to educate and support healing, identify toxic qualities and patterns and help empaths heal, reclaim reasonable and healthy standards and accountability and sometimes, in doing so, heal generational patterns. 💛

Here's a personality disorder that often gets overlooked or misdiagnosed: covert borderline personality disorder.

🌀 Covert BPD: The Silent Storm 🌀

Unlike its more outwardly expressive form, covert BPD can live in the shadows—masked by high-functioning behavior, caretaking, or emotional withdrawal.

It might sound like:

✨ “I’m fine” when everything feels broken inside
✨ A quiet longing to be seen—but hiding to stay safe
✨ Internal chaos, paired with outward control
✨ Fear of abandonment… cloaked in independence
✨ A deep ache for love… punished by self-doubt and guilt

🕊 “Be softer with you. You are a breathing thing, a memory to someone, a home to a life.”
— Nayyirah Waheed

🌿 You are not too much. You are not invisible. You are worthy of steady, nourishing love. If you have experience abuse from someone with covert BPD, remember it is normal to have needs and expect healthy accountability, emotional attunement and maturity based in mutual respect, honesty and safety.

What Is Covert Borderline Personality Disorder?

BPD is a personality disorder marked by intense emotional dysregulation, identity instability, fear of abandonment, and volatile relationships. Covert BPD—sometimes called "quiet" BPD—is less explosive and more inward or passive-aggressive.
Instead of outward rage or dramatic clinging, covert BPD often involves:
• Emotional withdrawal instead of explosions
• Blame shifting and victimhood identity
• Idealizing/devaluing others in cycles
• Guilt-tripping, passive punishment, stonewalling
• Chronic shame masked as self-righteousness or spiritual superiority
• Deep identity confusion, masked by idolization or fantasy
It often looks like calm on the outside, but inside, there’s a storm of repressed anger, self-loathing, and fear of being abandoned or exposed.
• Emotional volatility masked by avoidance
• Passive-aggressive forms of manipulation
• Fear of abandonment hidden behind control
• A fragile ego and unstable identity
• A pattern of idealization/devaluation
• Distorted perceptions of victimhood
• Inability to tolerate intimacy without power dynamics
• Fantasy addiction
• Reality avoidance
• Idealization of authority figures
• Impulse-driven identity reinvention
• Emotional highs followed by collapse
• Sexual-High Risk Behaviors

🧠 And Psychologically—What It Reflects:
Covert BPD + narcissistic traits often include:
• Projection of inner shame onto intimate partners
• Vilification of emotional needs as “clingy,” “crazy,” or “toxic”
• Shifting the emotional tone to regain power (e.g. “you’re just jealous” when you name a boundary)
• Avoiding internal work by framing the partner as the unstable one
This shows intense emotional and identity dysregulation that is characteristic of covert BPD and often overlaps with:
• Fantasy addiction
• Reality avoidance
• Idealization of authority figures
• Impulse-driven identity reinvention
• Emotional highs followed by collapse

A video that explores more that reflects on the difference between this and covert narcissism from Dr. Daniel Fox https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8q7vPWsDJU