11/24/2025
This Christmas has felt heavier for me, and it took me a while to understand why. With all of my decorations lost in the fire, I realized yesterday that I never truly took the time to mourn them. I grieved the big things right awayâthe frustration of starting over, the shock of losing so much at once. But the Christmas decorations⌠those were different. Those I was quietly, deeply sad about not having around me this holiday season.
At first, I started beating myself up. How silly, I thought, to cry over a bunch of red and green and sparkly things. But instead of pushing the feeling away, I sat with it. I gave myself some grace. And in that stillness, I realized those things were never just âthings.â
Christmas was always huge in my family. My mom and my aunt turned into these little Christmas elves every year, transforming their homes into winter wonderlands. That magic is what I grew up with and still owned some of these things and added some special ones of my own.
The truth was these decorations werenât just decorations. They were memories. They were pieces of the people I love and the moments that shaped me.
And thatâs why I was sadâbecause it felt like Iâd lost the memories themselves.
But the beautiful truth is⌠I didnât. Yesterday, I remembered every single one of them. Theyâre still with me. They always will be. And now, it just means I get to keep creating new memories, because that is what lasts forever.
So if youâre feeling stressed about decorating your house this holiday season, maybe try looking at it a little differently. That same Nutcracker or Santa you put out every year? Itâs worth it. Those familiar decorations are building memories your kids will carry with them for a lifetime. It isnât about having the newest, prettiest holiday thingsâitâs about the pieces that bring comfort, joy, and connection. Itâs the things that build a tradition in your family.
So even though weâre starting over, weâre determined to slowly rebuild those traditions again and we will be intentional.
So today Iâm so very grateful to have our new stockings hung and starting fresh!