07/04/2023
Insert from The Art of Overcoming.
“God’s dreams are always bigger than human dreams. Sometimes our dreams have to die, at least temporarily, so that we can die to our dreams. That is, we have to take our ideas and our self-reliance off the pedestal and put them on the altar. Sometimes the death of our little dreams makes way for the realization of God’s big dream. Our good dream must die to make room for the best dream, for a God-sized dream.”
Through the loss of several dreams over the past few years, several versions of me also had to die. I have learned that death can be painful, or peaceful. In either instance we will grieve, and grief is messy no matter how “healed” you think you are. As we shed the layers of ourselves, we will see some were quick to come off and others hang on for dear life and are afraid of death. I have also learned that trying to shame them, or rip them off, or dissolve them away with distracting or other external sources only prolongs the process of shedding and healing. Just like a physical wound our thoughts, beliefs and identity will die in its own way, we must relinquish our illusion of control. We can be gentle with this part of ourselves, encourage the letting go by allowing, and gracefully loving it away. We can then allow the space to heal and and create a new. This is a process like a physical wound might bleed, ache, and itch. As it transforms and heals it will be vulnerable to re-injury and we have to be cautious and have grace as this process runs it’s course. Eventually it transforms. The original trauma is not as it was. No it not gone, as nothing truly ever dies, but it is has transitioned into a new way of being, it looks and feels different to you and how you show up in the world. I have learned in this process that God is the architect of my dreams, and I am simply the builder using the tools he has given. And when the process of death and renewal must take place, it’s much more peaceful when I approach it with sweet surrender, love, compassion, and authenticity, no matter what that looks like. I hope my experience of this will help some of you on this journey. Truly the best advise I could ever give is to “Let go, and Let God” and trust the process! 💕 ~Keri~
