01/02/2025
2024 was the year of rediscovery, of finding my happiness again.
In the previous years, I had to face my past and really look at my habitual tendencies towards a “victim” mentality. Yes, life was hard growing up, and all of a sudden, my past came back to haunt me, making everything feel overwhelmingly difficult. The struggle was real and impacted my outlook on life. Every vacation, holiday, and birthday, I had this dark cloud of impending doom overshadowing those occasions—days meant for celebrating only deepened my sadness.
But 2024 was the year I changed that narrative, “No more!” I can’t continue to live like this, nor could I allow those around me to suffer because of it. I was done being the victim. I started with the intention of cultivating a strong mindset, healthier habits, and changing my perspective.
Gradually, things started to shift. I was less irritated and calmer while driving lol. I knew where my boundaries were and when to slow down before my nervous system was in overload. I started reflecting on my conversations with loved ones, questioning if I had been truly present over the last few years, being so caught up in this funk.
I remember one moment specifically when I realized my sister deserves my undivided attention because she should know how proud I am of her through the act of just being present in our conversations and to say the gushy stuff when the moment arises because that’s how I felt deep down about her. This “aha” moment spilled out into all my relationships. I wanted to reflect the brilliance of each person I encountered because we all are so great. And I am so proud 🥹 and so thankful that I get to share this life with exceptional humans. That’s where the truth lies. That’s my truth and the space I want to be in.
Throughout this year, I’ve committed to cultivating that presence with myself and those I love. Today, I can genuinely say I’m happy, and I’ve experienced a joy that has lingered through most of 2024. It’s been a journey—a fulfilling one. So, thanks, 2024, for the opportunity to find grace this year.
Happy New Year, Everyone! Wishing you all the best 🫶
