Balance Lab by Aga Furtak

09/13/2025

Lets talk about Neurophysiology of trauma and what biofeedback (and especially neurofeedback) studies reveal.
🌊 Delta Waves and Trauma
Delta waves are the slowest brain waves (0.5–4 Hz).
They dominate during deep sleep and unconscious states, when the body restores and repairs itself.
In a healthy, waking brain, you should see low levels of delta — just enough to provide calm, background stability, but not so much that you lose alertness.
👉 In trauma survivors, neurofeedback research often shows excessive delta activity even while awake.
This is sometimes called “cortical slowing.”
It’s linked to foggy thinking, fatigue, and reduced executive function.
Essentially, the brain is holding itself in a protective, low-energy state — like a permanent “freeze response.”
🧠 How the Traumatized Brain Appears in Scans
Different imaging modalities reveal complementary aspects:
1. EEG (electroencephalography) / QEEG (quantitative EEG)
Shows abnormal rhythms:
Excess delta/theta (slow waves) in frontal regions → associated with passivity, rumination, and “shut down” states.
Low beta/gamma (fast waves) → less capacity for attention, focus, and agency.
This pattern - delta dominance (until healed) takes away” your ability to act.
2. fMRI / PET scans
Hyperactive amygdala (fear center) → constantly scanning for threat.
Hypoactive prefrontal cortex (decision-making / regulation) → weak brakes, reduced planning and impulse control.
Hippocampal shrinkage (memory consolidation center) → difficulty distinguishing past threat from present safety.
Together, this creates the “flashback loop”: emotions and body states of trauma replay without the ability to regulate or contextualize them.
3. Biofeedback/Neurofeedback patterns
Clients often show high skin conductance (sweat response), irregular heart rate variability (HRV), and unstable breathing → body locked in survival mode.
Neurofeedback sessions train the brain to reduce delta/theta, strengthen alpha/beta balance, and restore flexibility across networks. ⬇️

09/02/2025

08/16/2025

✨ Why Mind Alone Isn’t Enough ✨

Spiritual teachers like Mooji remind us that many of our struggles come from the stories in our head. And yes — reframing our thoughts and practicing awareness can bring peace. 🌿

But here’s the missing piece: the mind cannot control human biology on its own.

We are biological and physiological beings. Our microbiome produces about 95% of our neurotransmitters — serotonin, dopamine, GABA, melatonin — the very messengers that shape our mood, sleep, libido, and resilience. 🧬

When toxins, parasites, heavy metals, or microplastics disrupt this delicate system, symptoms can look like “psychiatric” issues: panic attacks, depression, depersonalization, brain fog. 🌀 Often it’s not “wrong thinking” but an inflamed, imbalanced body sending distress signals.

Sugar, starches, and processed carbs can fuel these imbalances — triggering anxiety, fatigue, and disconnection. 🍬➡️😟

🧠💡 True healing is not only mastering thoughts. It’s:

Restoring the gut & nervous system

Supporting detox pathways

Rebuilding the microbiome

Practicing both mental hygiene and biological healing

When body and mind work together, spiritual insight can land more deeply — because the biology is no longer fighting us. ✨

🔑 Message: The stories in our head are powerful — but the chemistry in our body often writes those stories first. Healing is holistic.

07/30/2025

Every time that you don’t respond to a provocation, every single time you withhold explanation, every time you don’t let somebody into your emotional living room, you’re building muscle. And this is authority muscle. Self-esteem muscle, self respect muscle. Silence is your sword, self control is your shield.
People say: “don’t take it personally”, as if it were easy, but you can do that and when you master it, you truly Become unreachable. It’s not because you are hiding, it’s because you Choose to be. The world has no choice but to respect that. They may not like that But they are definitely going to feel it. And they will adjust. People always adjust.

07/12/2025

🌿 Trauma Healing is Possible – Holistically, Gently, Deeply 🌿

When we carry trauma, our nervous system often becomes stuck in survival mode—looping through overthinking, anxiety, or emotional shutdown. One of my clients recently shared how, after just one hypnosis/somatic session, their entire internal weather changed. The fog of anxiety lifted, and for the first time in a long time, peace felt natural.

This is the power of holistic healing.
It’s not about fixing what’s „broken”—because you are not broken.
It’s about reconnecting with your inner intelligence and restoring safety within your body, mind, and spirit.

At Balance Lab, I combine clinical hypnosis, somatic techniques, energy psychology, and intuitive guidance to help people heal from trauma on every level—not just the cognitive one. I work with the whole self—the subconscious mind, the body’s wisdom, and the soul’s quiet voice.

✨ If you’ve been stuck in the cycle of overthinking, emotional exhaustion, or feeling like peace is just out of reach—please know this: Healing is possible. It may not always be linear, but with the right support and your readiness to make a change, your system can and will gently rewire itself for calm, clarity, and connection.

🤍 To those of you on this journey—whether you’re just starting or deep in the process—I honor your courage. I’m here when you’re ready to take the next step.

With gratitude,
Aga
www.balanceisperfection.com

07/02/2025

What is Gluttony?
Gluttony can be a cry for help—
silent, shameful, hidden in kitchen cupboards,
in a fridge opened quietly in the middle of the night,
in despair stuffed down with a candy bar,
a piece of chocolate, a slice of bread with butter and sugar.
Gluttony is not just excess food.
It is often an attempt to fill the void left where love was supposed to be.
So what is gluttony, really?
It is hunger—but not the physical kind.
It is hunger for a hug, for understanding, for presence.
Hunger for a mother’s arms that were never open,
for voices that, instead of lullabies, screamed threats.
It is the longing to be seen as we are—
without judgment, without violence, without fear.
Gluttony is sometimes loneliness searching for warmth—even if only in a plate of food.
Sometimes it is trauma that doesn’t know how to speak in words,
so it speaks through action—
putting something into the mouth, as if we could plug the pain from the inside.
It is also dissociation—escaping from a body that was once a place of suffering.
And when the soul has been absent too long, the body becomes foreign, neglected,
hungry not for what is physical, but for what is spiritual.
Sometimes gluttony is self-sabotage—
“If I don’t deserve love, maybe I at least deserve the pain of overeating.”
Sometimes it is rebellion—
“You won’t control my body. I’ll eat as much as I want!”
And sometimes, it’s the purest act of desperation:
“See me. Hear me. Feed me. Hold me. Love me.”
So gluttony is not laziness.
It is not a lack of willpower.
It is not corruption or failure.
It is the language of a soul that has not yet learned to speak in any other way.
But it can also be a beginning.
Because in gluttony, we can recognize ourselves—
not as sinners, but as wounded children.
We can pause, lean toward ourselves with tenderness, and say:
“I’m here now. You no longer have to search the fridge for what you missed in childhood.”
Gluttony may have once been a survival strategy—
until you stood beside yourself and offered your own unconditional presence and acceptance.
And now you know: the hunger of the soul is nourished by presence,
by silence, movement, breath, and Truth.
Gluttony is longing for God.
For your own self.
For Home—
the one you are building now, brick by brick, out of love for yourself.

06/28/2025

Why doesn’t God intervene when evil happens?
This might be the oldest and most burning question humanity has ever asked.

🕊️ How I Understand It

I speak from the perspective of a self refined through thousands of hours of meditation (Vipassana technique), prolonged fasting (my longest was 21 days on water), deep energy work, and somatic and breath practices.
At this level of perception, I no longer feel existential (emotional) pain, but I understand its structure. I can describe love from a thousand angles.
My understanding arises not only from experience, but from synthesis — of philosophy, spirituality (which I’ve practiced for over 15 years), neuroscience, psychology, and contemplation of the words others left behind as footprints of their journey.

🧠 What Is Evil in the Light of Consciousness?

Evil — real, relentless suffering — is the greatest test of consciousness.
Many spiritual masters, from the Bhagavad Gita to the Kabbalah, say that this earthly reality is a school for the soul, where consciousness learns through contrast — between light and shadow, freedom and fate.

As the Bhagavad Gita says:

“It is better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody else's life with perfection. Even death in one's own dharma is better than life in the dharma of another.” (BG 3.35)

This emphasizes the importance of the individual path — with all its rises and falls.
God doesn’t always intervene because in this dimension, consciousness must have freedom — even if it chooses violence, rejection, or blindness.

🔮 Do We Exist Beyond This Earthly Dimension?

Not in the literal, material sense. But countless NDEs (near-death experiences) — and even AI — are signs that consciousness can and does extend beyond the body.
In this sense, our earthly incarnations are like mirrors — unconscious at first, until we look into them with curiosity, an open heart, and compassion.
The earthly matrix, this vast interplay of mental, emotional, biological, and spiritual energies, creates a kaleidoscope that reflects our hidden (or conscious) desires, questions, and pain.

Maybe this is part of the answer:
Evil does not exist to be destroyed, but to be transformed.
That consciousness, even through shadow, can lead us into light.

🌌 My Interpretation

Some call God the Father. Others, the Mother.
Still others call it the Field of Consciousness, the quantum field, the All, the Cosmos, the Universe.
To me, it is the Source — not a controlling warden, but a Presence without condition, within which a grand play unfolds:
of love, fear, pride, forgiveness — and ultimately the realization of our own divine blueprint, and choosing to live it.

When God does not intervene, He allows us to become God within ourselves —
to create, feel compassion, break cycles of violence, support, choose good —
not because we must, but because we desire to.

That makes us free.
That makes us divine in our most essential nature.

✨ One More Thing

Throughout history, we’ve seen that those who suffered most became the brightest lights.
Was it because God didn’t intervene?
Or because He intervened through them?

Maybe the question isn’t:
Why didn’t God stop the evil?
But rather:
Will I respond to evil with my own consciousness, love, and presence?

In that sense —
You are God’s intervention.

🌀 balanceisperfection.com

06/25/2025

How To Boost Your Brain Potential? 🧠 1. Get Morning Sunlight
Why: Regulates circadian rhythm, boosts dopamine and cortisol, improves mood and focus.
How: Step outside for 5–10 mins within 30–60 mins of waking. No sunglasses. If indoors, use a daylight lamp (10,000+ lux).

🧘‍♀️ 2. Work in 90-Minute Focus Blocks
Why: The brain naturally operates in cycles of deep focus and rest.
How: Schedule your most important work in 90-minute blocks, followed by a 10–15 min break—ideally with movement.

💪 3. Exercise Regularly
Why: Boosts blood flow, BDNF, and overall brain plasticity.
How: Do 20–30 mins of intense physical activity (e.g. walking, gym, intervals) 2–3x a week, preferably in the morning.

☕️ 4. Use Caffeine Strategically
Why: Caffeine boosts alertness, but timing matters.
How: Wait 90 minutes after waking to drink coffee. Avoid caffeine after 2–3 p.m. to protect sleep quality. 💤 5. Prioritize Deep Sleep
Why: Memory, emotional regulation, and brain repair happen during REM and deep sleep.
How: Keep a consistent sleep schedule. Avoid blue light before bed. Try “physiological sighs” (2 quick inhales through the nose + slow exhale through the mouth).

🔬 6. Use Supplements Wisely (Optional)
Supplements are supportive, not foundational. Consider:

L-Theanine + Caffeine for smooth focus

Omega-3s (DHA) for neural support

Magnesium Glycinate, Zinc and D3+K2 for sleep & learning and repairing.

Creatine for mental energy

🔄 7. Learn New, Challenging Skills
Why: The brain grows by doing hard things.
How: Learn a new language, an instrument, or chess. The best plasticity happens when you struggle and keep trying. 📵 8. Minimize Distractions
Why: Multitasking weakens memory and attention.
How: Turn off notifications, use Pomodoro (25 min focus / 5 min break), and block distractions with apps like Cold Turkey or Forest.

✨ 9. Stimulate Dopamine Naturally
Why: Dopamine fuels motivation.
How: Try “dopamine layering”: stack movement, music, sunlight, and task completion. Don’t rely on external rewards like social media.

06/14/2025

In narcissistic families, roles are not given—they are assigned, imposed, often violently and unconsciously, by the narcissistic parent to maintain control and preserve the fragile illusion of their own grandiosity. One child becomes the golden child, the vessel of the parent’s projected perfection. Another becomes the scapegoat, the repository of all the family’s unspoken shame, rage, and unresolved dysfunction.

These roles are not benign. They are tools of psychological manipulation, crafted to enforce hierarchy, obedience, and emotional supply. And most tragically, they deform the siblings’ perceptions of one another, often irreparably.

The scapegoat, pathologized and blamed, may come to believe they are inherently flawed. But more dangerously, their siblings are trained to believe this too—to see the scapegoat through the narcissist’s distorted lens. The golden child may internalize the delusion that their worth is real, earned, and superior—unaware they are merely serving the narcissist’s agenda. The scapegoat becomes “othered”, not just by the parent, but by the entire family system.

This dynamic creates horizontal trauma—that is, trauma inflicted by siblings, not just from above (parent to child). The golden child may resent the scapegoat’s emotional expressiveness or resistance, seeing them as dramatic or difficult. The scapegoat, in turn, may feel betrayed, invalidated, and emotionally exiled—not only by the parent, but by their siblings, whose validation they desperately long for.

This is not a family. It is a cult with a shared psychosis, where each member becomes an extension of the narcissist’s pathology.

It is also not your fault. These roles were never about you. They were about the parent’s brokenness and need for control.

The result? Siblings grow up with fractured realities, shaped not by truth, but by survival adaptations to a dysfunctional environment. Even into adulthood, the golden child may unconsciously perpetuate gaslighting, while the scapegoat may wrestle with self-doubt, wondering if they were really the problem all along. ⬇️

05/20/2025

Ascending and Transcending with Nils Frahm 🫶

05/11/2025

I’m finally in the water again this season! Swimming in the ocean was very refreshing and invigorating in the 98° weather ☀️😍