Serenity Soul Seekers, Los Angeles, CA (2025)

08/07/2025

08/01/2025

The little girl who grew up feeling chronically lonely didn’t just crave attention—she craved presence. She sat in silence, surrounded by people who were physically there but emotionally unavailable. That kind of absence doesn’t just leave you sad—it rewires you. You stop expecting to be seen. You stop believing your needs matter. So you shrink. You perform. You make yourself easy to love by never asking for anything real. And what’s worse? You learn to wear that loneliness like armor, because being invisible started to feel safer than being rejected.

That loneliness didn’t just follow you into adulthood—it built your entire identity. You chase people who breadcrumb you because even scraps feel better than the echo of emptiness. You confuse emotional unavailability with mystery. You keep breaking your own heart, hoping someone will finally pick up the shattered pieces. And when they don’t? You convince yourself you were too much, too needy, too emotional. But the truth is you were trained to believe love must be earned. You were taught that your presence alone was never enough—so now, you apologize for even existing when you take up space.

But here’s the truth you need to hear: your loneliness wasn’t your fault, but healing from it is your responsibility. Because if you don’t, you’ll keep recreating it in every relationship you enter. You’ll keep loving people who leave you starving. You’ll keep performing instead of connecting. You have to stop calling it “independence” when it’s really just fear in disguise. You’re not too much. You were just never given enough. And now—it’s your job to become the one who stays. The one who sees you. The one who no longer abandons herself just to feel close to someone else.

You can heal! If I can help you do that please reach out w/DM or comment 'discover' to sent some info.

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