03/10/2023
In 2012, I left my full time position at work. I had been on a race to succeed through high school, college, medical school, anesthesia residency, pain management fellowship, and then finally acupuncture training. I was burnt out. I felt like the sacrifice for rest, for time to sleep and laugh and love, was never going to end. I was depleted. I took 8 months off and traveled. I found a new path eventually, working part time at the hospital as an anesthesiologist, and building a private practice in medical acupuncture.
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During the transition, my dear yoga friend Sage told me to learn to do nothing. I needed to lie on a bolster for 15 minutes. And not move or check email or talk.
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I remember thinking this was sort of waste of time… But she was right…
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I needed to train myself on how to sit in Silence. How to actually Let Go. How to do Nothing at all. I opened myself to an unpredictable and new path of living, letting go of control and allowing for possibility. The space I carve out for myself is so sacred and vital, just as nourishing as a good meal and good company. The time I have for myself, whether it be two hours or ten minutes, is time for me to say “No” to the world and say “Yes” to me. I learned to let go of FOMO (fear of missing out) and embrace JOMO (joy of missing out). My true friends understand this. As they tell us before takeoff on every flight, you have to put the oxygen mask on Yourself before helping others, or you will pass out.
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I share my story so that other women know that they have a Choice to Change whenever they Want to. And the definition of Success is what each one determines whenever she or he says, “I am.” I am strong, I am wise, I am pure, perfect and complete. No matter what. I am. ~•~
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Photo 3: Full Moon Gazing, Evening of March 6, 2023