05/06/2025
I think ANYONE can feel beautiful (not just in a physical sense) if they are in their correct environment. No matter who you are.
That's why we feel so refreshed and happy and have positive outlooks on life after going to ledges lol. You can be SO AWAKE AND AWARE and still get sucked in to negative environments and not even notice it's happening sometimes, or maybe you are in a situation where you don't have a choice but to be around it, maybe it's an immediate family member creating a negative environment for you that you CAN'T get away from (and unless you're an experienced monk you most likely aren't going to go unaffected) . Not everyone is free, in this sense. We are, because we are free to learn and grow and master this situation, but we are not free until we reach that point and getting there is one of the biggest problems people have ever faced..... and do not even realize it!!
Sometimes when you are the most empathetic person and it's someone SO close to you, you cannot even fathom removing yourself from the situation.... you know it's killing your soul and firey passions in life but you sacrifice yourself and choose to stay. In my experiences, they do not turn out good. Not the way you want them to. Sometimes you don't have someone to pull you out of the situation or to give you advice on your best options. I am lucky that i had someone pop in right before detrimental moments and enlighten me with their pov and wismadic advice.... or else i wouldn't have survived it.
Negativity takes people away in many different disguises..... depression, loneliness, su***de, cancer, inflammation, weakness, many sicknesses, anger, rage, evil, pain etc. And it never gets talked about because one it gets to that point it isn't about the initial problem in the first place. It's now about you and your problems.... making you feel even worse than you already did. How many TRULY HAPPY people do you know that are TRULY SATISFIED with where they are in life??!!
It's wild. It needs talked about. The advice i was given NEEDS to be heard.
Even tho it hurts, sometimes it is in EVERYONE'S best interest to push the red button on the entire situation. It hurts. But does it hurt as much as losing yourself completely to all the above things that will come from it? It's hard, but necessary.
Everyone's situations are different and unique and the advice needed may be different. That's why it should be talked about more. I'm mostly referring to my own personal situations with this. Where i was gladly and willingly trapped in the most negative environment. My fire was put out with a Tsunami. The situation came to a heart breaking gut wrenching end that i spent a lifetime building.... that i deemed my only purpose for existing...... gone. Leaving me completely shattered and no glue exists. But overall I'm trying to keep a positive outlook on the entire sh*tty situation and remember the words i was given earlier that same day..... obviously the Universe doing exactly what the Universe does. And I need to remember to trust the Universe. I know this, but I'm human and it's normal to have your doubts when you get so low. But i believe the answers that were needed the entire time are only possible through this outcome i was avoiding with every bit of my soul.
So even for me, even the basics, are really hard to remember and live by at times.
I think it is EXTREMELY IMPORTANT to have a solid group or even one person who is QUALIFIED (and i am NOT referring to a degree stamped by the gov..... i am talking about experienced wismadic Shawman- like "humans") to pull you out when you are drowning even though you know how to swim!!!! I'm lucky I had LAUREN!!!!
And i think my best path through healing is helping others through my own experiences. It makes me feel like at least SOMETHING POSITIVE can come out of something that only left me hurt.......
And now after just a short amount of time....i am slowly starting to see beauty in myself that i lost site of while my fire was put out. It is slowly coming back.... again, not just physical beauty but yes physical beauty too. Looking in the mirror and seeing something that I'm disgusted with daily suddenly looks different. It's physically the same but since mental clarity is coming back i see that same image and think differently at what i see.
So if you're feeling down and hard on yourself..... maybe consider a different environment.....different situations? Different types of people?, different cultures maybe?
Just change it. Although sometimes our roots (family) keep us grounded right where we are at, we also are not TREES. go
