I live in Washington State. I have a grown son (whom I love more than life), a fantastic dog and a wonderful boyfriend. I am also fat. I've been fat all my life. I really can't remember a time when I wasn't fat or felt fat or hated my body and all of its rolls. I know, I know, where's the self love? Where's the self acceptance? Where's the PC grammar? But, I'm keeping it real. Real with me and rea
l with you. This page is designed to put myself out there because I know that I can't be the only one! I can't be the only one who hates the way she looks when she looks in the mirror and sees ALL of my faults. I can't be the only one that cringes a little when my boyfriend touches my fat. I can't be the only one that hurts when she crawls out of bed or wants to stay in bed and hide instead of going to a public function. I'm here and you're here reading this. So, it must be true. And yes, we are always hardest on ourselves. This page was designed with all of us in mind. All of us who need to put ourselves first!! You know that saying, "your body is your temple."? Well, it is. You get out what you put in. You put in carbage, you get lack of energy, achiness, stiffness, inflammation. Are you tired of feeling like this? I've always said that if you don't like something, change it. Be the change you want to see in the world. THAT'S why I'm here spilling my guts. This page is going to be where you can follow the change I am making. The change I am putting into my world. I do not want to feel ashamed any more. I want to have that self confidence that I project into the world (bigger girls usually do, but deep down it's a façade). I want to look like on the outside what I feel like on the inside. A vibrant, beautiful, healthy woman whom wants the reflection to mirror that. I do hope to inspire some of you. I do hope that you'll ask questions. I do hope that you know that you are NOT alone. You're not the only one either. It's time to wake up and shine!!
