10/10/2024
The Birth of Summer Claire
Preface (Part 1/5):
I was drawn to birth work through my own journey with chronic illness. It is a foundational place to turn to for redemption, whether unpacking our own experience entering the world, previous births we’ve had, or preparing for a delivery. As Sister Morningstar says, it is important to share “power stories” of positive births to open the doorway of possibility for others, especially those expecting.
It took me years to overcome the victim story about my body and health. Healing could only occur for me when I placed that authority back within, reconnecting to instinct and intuition. I saw that healing and birthing are innate processes, functioning best when we remove interference.
I had a wild pregnancy with no testing, ultrasounds or doppler. While this isn’t for everybody, it allowed me to attune to my own body and baby. Test results would not alter my choice to move forward with the pregnancy and false readings are quite common. That was not worth the stress for me. Something I have come to see in birth is that if you start out in medical care and a complication occurs, you never know if medical intervention caused it. If we start out outside the system and something occurs, for me, that’s what medical care is there for.
When sound waves from ultrasound or Doppler hit, they are loud and for those moments baby cannot hear the otherwise soothing and consistent sound of mom’s heartbeat. It felt more important to me to keep that connection intact than to use technology to outsource my peace of mind in my low risk pregnancy. We checked in with baby through non invasive palpation and fetal stethoscope. I listened to my body the whole way through with what it was craving or needing based on symptoms.
Similarly, at the birth I did not want any interference to the physiological process or to our bond. There were no cervical checks, no monitoring, no plastic, and no gloved hands. Before hiring my midwife, I clarified all of these things as well as the possibility that I might ask her to be in the other room the whole time. I feel so blessed that Nick and her genuinely trusted me, our baby and the birth process.