08/28/2025
Happy 71st birthday to you! A raw and honest post from your daughter who wishes that you were apart of all that is going on today, in a physical sense. ✨
I laughed this morning as I dropped the kids off to school. Truth be told, it was a rough morning tears and all. One really really really rough morning. I lost my patience, I wasn’t calm and I let my emotions take over. 😞
I turned on the radio, to switch my morning vibe and they were talking about trending TikToks (which I don’t even have), but somehow you still found a way to send me a sign. They shared about a man who could whistle to the Free Bird lyrics. That’s our song it always has been, ever since you first let me know it was. That was the first sign I needed. 🕊️And right after that, Hey Ya by OutKast came on one of your favorites. I instantly remembered us listening to it on cassette in the truck together. Thank you for reminding me you’re here always. Thank you for the signs this morning. When my day was going in every wrong way. When I feel short it being the best parent to your grandkids. Lets be honest that’s what helps,in this picture you weren’t being the best version of yourself, addiction had started to control your life and I was losing you, I was confused and upset and clueless, but we managed, we made it though. I didn’t love you less when you didn’t do your best, when you had bad days. It’s apart of this life lessons are taught. It’s one reason I am sober and have been for over 3 years. You gave me a lesson in your pain.
It doesn’t get easier. It’s just a feeling you learn to carry, and even after 11 years, some days and years are harder than others.
I hope and pray that I make you proud, even when I fall short of being the best version of myself. On days like today, I wish more than anything that I could pick up the phone, tell you about my sh*tty day, and hear you spin it into something positive with a joke. ❤️✨
Instead I’ll keep feeling your presence and all the signs you sneak in your special ways.
Here are to the good days and better ones. ❤️
Happy happy birthday!